see e title of dis entry..?ttz wat im feelin nw..ive been blasted by e parenz dis noon..it was aftr a call fr my nenek sedara..it was abt e othr side's bitchin abt me..wat made dem MORE pissy is tt my parenz didnt give Putri up for adoption..lyke fuck ryte?!den, e parenz started blastin at me..abt e plans im havin wif e gfs; dey disapprove..dey tok abt money issue..den say im owaz on my laptop 24/7..dey xpct me to use e laptop for jobhuntin, but for goodness sake', ive got othr tings to do oso..help my fren wif her blogshop, checkin my email response..plus, whrelse cn i let out my inner emotions..??my diaries; my mom reads dem..*sigh*

i cried, argued wif e parenz..itz so shitty..alot of exchange of words..i was super upset..my dad was sayin y nt put full guardianship of Putri under dem..let her panggil him n Mama "Ayah/Mama"..wtf?!i was super boiling hot..den i broke down upon lookin at Putri's face..i cnt bare anymre shits fr dem..i wanna bring her outta e house..bt whr to??i nit gt a job..a.s.a.p..den rent a house..whr i cn stay independently wif Putri..den mit up wif HYM anytyme i wan..damn fuck!!im so pissed wif dem..

if i cn gt a job, im gonna rent a place..e plc i wan is BEDOK/HOUGANG..away fr dem..i wanna b wif e ones i love..nutin makes me hapi; othr den my gfs, her n HIM..my parenz kept pressurin me..

aku kawin lari aru tau!!

i tok to Rin abt my prob..i gt no1 else to turn to..i wanna runaway wif her..bt i duwan HIM to do anitin stupid to take care of us..haiz..im super torn up..wat m i to do?!..

wan me to work; at the same time wan me to take full responsibility..wen i take care of her fully, sum1's havin e damn RED eye..itz lyke hw m i to b e mother wen e grandmother gets in e way all e tyme..??haiz..im super stressed..i wanna swallow e bottle of pesticide n watch my life slithers away..or grab e damn knife n stab myself..shit la..~super upset!!