Alwaz Be My Baby

move or not to move...?

2009-09-27T11:30:00.002+08:00

here i am, updating abit..

im kinda like e layouts on Rin n Waney new blog..

dey usin onsugar.com...

shd i move too?

cos itz gettin crowded here..

wif so many hatetaggers n KPOs..*jgn marah bro*

hubby ydae online wif me..

he told me to byk sbr as he will do sumtin 2 end all of dis drama..

i told hym tt itz hard n i wan outta their lives..

he said e sweetest tings, "mami, u owaz hav ur ayah's side n mine..we all love u n farah..u knw mak loves farah kn..i love u mami.."

he doesnt say such tings to me in public bt durin our private moments by e beach, he wld cuddle up 2 me n hug me till i feel secure in hys arms..

he's nt as affectionate as e past, bt he's more stable in emotions..

he kips me sane nw..

owaz runnin 2 my side wenever i hav a breakdown..

nw, he's owaz kol-in 2 chck on me..

owaz missin me..

owaz lovin me..

ok la..

enuff of dis mushy-ness..

i wanna check out OnSugar.com..

byez..

sweetness.of.love.

2009-09-26T01:44:00.000+08:00

Since I’ve updated my bloggie earlier..
Here I am updating again..
After rambling so much abt e 1st two days, its time to ramble on my health..*giggles*
Dis whole wk, I onli werk ydae n tml.. On tues I had an acute case of chest cramps.. @ my right breast area.. Den I had a hard time breathing.. On wed is my off day.. Suppose to b ydae bt Kak Sita wanted 2 xchng cos she gt medical apptmnt ydae: therefore, my off day was on Wed.. I spent my off day @ hm.. Super weak.. No1 took care of me xcpt my beloved gfs, Mimi & Myra.. E bf? Well, he AWOL on me.. Forget abt him wen I was damn sick.. Bt at least he came by on Wed nite 2 c me wen found out I was veri sick.. *Sweet? Dunno la..*
Ydae went to werk as usual.. Bf gave me a surprise.. He waited 4 me @ e bus stop 2 send me off 2 werk.. A huge feeling of happiness engulfed all over me.. I hugged him until I didn’t wanna let go.. *weird huh?* Den in e mrt, e both of us slept cos didn’t hav enuff slip e nyte b4.. We hung out @ e playground till abt 2am.. I left him @ e playground n went hm 2 slip.. Ttz y I was uber surprised 2 c hym @ e bus stop.. *giggles*
Upon reaching werk, he kissed my forehead & on e lips.. In frnt of e APO bois.. Tt surprised me.. Cos he doesn’t do tt b4.. It was e 1st time.. It felt romantic n sweet.. Despite I was still unwell & veri pissed wif hym, he still took care of me.. Aftr werk, I gt hys panic call & went straight to Bedok to attend to hym.. He was quite badly beaten up by hys so-called frenz.. I’ve already told hym nt 2 trust e new frenz too easily.. But he doesn’t listen 2 me.. Went over to Lysa’s crib to get ice water to cool down hys swollen cheek.. See hw much I love hym.. I’m still havin chest pains @ tt pt of tyme.. Havent had my meds..
Nw @ hm.. Still sick.. Flu shits.. Hopefully hubby come to fetch me n send me to werk.. Plus, he wanna fetch oso.. Hehe.. Ok la.. Feelin tired n sleepy.. Tml werk liao.. Bye..

imperfect hari raya....

2009-09-25T12:15:00.000+08:00

here i am bck to update on my bloggie..
itz been a hectic hari raya for e 1st two days..

on e 1st day (20.9.09), we left home quite late cos had to wait for ayah..
so in e late aftrnoon, we went over to my aunt's plc @ boon lay..
there, had so much fun..
me n baby slept in kak zana's old room..
cos i ate my flu meds n it made me sleepy..
baby lak cranky cos been up since 9+am..
slept for abt an hr for both of us..
i had a great time there cos no1 judged me n baby..
n evry1 loved e both of us..
dey even gave me encouragement n advices abt takin care of baby..
drg tk kuat agama tapi drg tk mengutuk kesilapan org..
drg still support cos dey undrstnd..
ttz y i rather raya wif dem den e other side..

den fr boon lay, we went to eunos..
e grandparents plc..
i had to put aside my ego n deal wif dem..
bt i knew tt disaster will strike wen im there..
we werent reali welcome there..
too many hypocrites ar..
dpn ckp lain, blkng lain..
e onli person tt i reali wanna fuck is my aunt..
e bitch who started tis..
she's a total motherfucker..
wen mama went there b4, she wasnt there..
cos she didnt wan e truth to b knwn..
my grandpa was e cool one..
he was veri calm..
he knew agama bttr den e rez..
he didnt use vulgarity against me n mama..
bt e wife was totali hilang akal..
she maki hamun me mcm mulut tk de lesen..
nama jek da gi haji berulang kali..
tapi mulut kuat mengutuk, mengata n menghina..
lagi2 de support dpd anak2 kesygn dia..
aku heran nape bila mama sebut nama betina tu, pakcik aku yg aru kehilangan bini, walked away..
hahaha..
nk stab hero by sayin wat was written on my blog..
tapi bila mama bongkar rahsia, konek kecut..
aku tk heran sape nk baca ini blog..
aku da ckp dgn makcik yg aru alik fr london..
"i wont fuck pple upside down if im nt triggered..pple who disses my family, deserves e world to knw wat a fuckin shit dey r.."
jgn stab da beragama, tapi perangai mcm sial..
aku n mama masih tk puas hati dgn pmpn sundal tu..
dey tink dey won e war..
bt dey r damn wrong..
e war has juz begun..
let mama start e defence n attack..
while i n Nyf stand at e sideline waitin 4 our turn..
*listen here...nk report kt nenek psl nie entry..korang nye psl..mama kt sblh skg..she knws watever i type here..so stop being a hypocrite n damn big fucker liars..*

oh..btw, klu nk ckp aku kangkang puki aku, check puki2 yg lain if da kena sumbat ke belum..
n check if drg pernah minum arak..
nie benda semua aku tau; same for mama..
tapi korang tk kn berani bilang nenek..
cos my shits r more to tok abt, den ur beloved daughters/nieces..

finally ive let it out..so im waitin for more craps fr e fuckin family..

on my 2nd day of raya..(21.9.09)
i went to marine terrace..e bf's uncle house..
went wif baby..had loads of fun..den we went to yishun..nt much plc cos baby was cranky n clingy..
mayb cos of ydae's shit tt hppn 2 her mommy n grandma..
she was veri clingy until e bf gt no chance 2 manja2 wif me..haha..
bt we had a huge quarrel @ yishun..
abt committments n our contacts..
he nearly hit me wen i shouted @ him..
i dared him until his aunt came out..
she damaikn us both..
den we tok2 at e staircase..
baby was on my lap; playin wif my makeup pouch..
we argued until i asked for a break up..
bt he die2 duwanna..
wen i took off e couple ring, he put it bck on me..
i cried n wiped my tears..
he hugged me n baby..
apologised for evrytin n reali wan tings 2 werk out..
he kept sayin tt he loves me n ttz y he chose me over linda(ex timer)..
so we went bck inside n ate..
baby slept..
so aftr tt, i went home by cab wif baby..
ive been hurt bt im ok la..

hmmm...
ive updated e pix oredi @ Facebook..
bt i put up here oso..
for those who dont hav Facebook..

ok la..ttz all for nw..hehe..
byez..

After Long Silence

2009-09-18T21:09:00.003+08:00

hey y'all..sory for the long absence..
since e death of my laptop,ive yet to able to do any bloggin n i miz it..haha..
so nw wif my new mini HP, im gonna blog quite often..
hehe..happening sak..
jz ordered on Wed, tdae cn gt e lappy..
nw im happily usin it..muahahaha..

so hw's life for lil ol' me u mite wanna knw?
im doin fine..so is lil princess..we r doin veri well..
our financial is quite stable..despite e tite budget..
alhamdulillah, princess expense owaz enuff..
mine?hehehehe..im still content..
ciggies, mkn, minum, transport..
all ok..
yup, im still smokin..
mama knws n wana help me cut down den quit..

wow..a mth of ramadhan is abt over..
ive went thru alot lately..
wif e exbfs, exgfs..
bt ive survived didnt i..haha..
im currently single bt unavailable..
got 2guys n 2gals to layan daily..
prepaid aku naik kering nk kena layan drg..
tapi drg yg tukang top up la..haha..

ive bought evrytin for raya..
1st day wif e family..me n princess will b in bright yellow, while e rez in dirty yellow..hehe..
den on 2nd day, me n princess will b in our KEBAYA..yupz..princess wearin kebaya..haha..
no worries..pix will b up once ive taken dem n bck fr e jln2..
2nd day im goin wif e exbf side..cos dey wanna c e princess..
im werkin on tues..
den off on wed..
suppose 2b off on thrs..bt kak sita exchng off days wif me cos of her medical chckup..
on 16th sept, ive bought my mom her heels fr Charles n Keith..so did i..
mine super high lor..
ayah warned me nt 2 carry baby wen im wearin it..haha..
den bought Krys hys belated 20th bdae gift..
had pizza for dinner..hehe..
den nw i gt my lappy..whee~

im usin my lappy for internet n story/poem writin wen im bored..
den no nit 2 fite wif Krys for e comp..haha..
me n Lala r ok nw..
contact constantly..
we acknowledge each other @ werk by nodding or waving..nvr tok..
cos pple nnti uat mulut ar wen c me rapat alik wif her..
org2 semua kn mulut mcm sial..
mcm la drg baik sgt..
at least aku rapat dgn butch; bkn jantan..

haiz..
wat else 2 update ehk..hmm..
ok la..
nk layan princess 1st..hehe..
anitin i update soon..
byezz..

Tiring Week....

2009-08-02T20:30:00.000+08:00

here am i updatin my bloggie..
since sum1 texted wif me tis early mrnin regarding sumtin & she popped in e issue of updatin dis dusty bloggie of mine..haha..*u knw who u r babe*

so here goes nutin....

tis whole week has been DAMN tiring for me..on Mon (27/7) was my Off Day..so ive spent my time wif e bro, mom n baby..Daddy was werkin e 2nd shift..so aftr he went off to werk, we all got ready n went off to CDANS..to bowl..Baby was ecstatic..as usual..we took 157 to bt batok den took 188 to CDANS..haha..it was raining though..so we covered her stroller wif e rain cover..me n mama shared an umbrella..haha..bowled for nearly 2hrs..4 games..muahahahaha..won all e games!!wheee~aftr tt, we hang ard cos it was raining heavily..wen e rain had stopped, we went home..Nad was forever cuddling up on my breast..huggin me tightly..haiyo..makin berat lei tt babygerl of mine..hahaha..

on tues mrnin, i was super lazy to get up..pampered la..fr Sat till Mon wake up late..hahahaha...but wen i did wake up, Nad woke up oso..she wanna bathe wif me bt i wun let her..jz let her sit in her bathtub while i showered..aftr tt, ive make up as usual..den left home by 6.15am..reached werk in a hr..smoked at e usual smokin pt..den i took off to buy mrnin coffee..as i walked thru e Staff Lobby, i didnt acknowledge NiQ..i jz cldnt..haiz..nvm la..den upstairs i knew watz my deployment..OJT: Backroom..wahpiang..had to do creation & printing of certs..aru bljr da hands-on..all e way i did creation..durin creation we had to verify documents tt e cashier had collected fr e applicant(s)..den once all confirmed, i had to stamp e control number which is in sequence..den we had to check if e applicant(s) had taken their Oath..once dey did, we start to print their certs..1st day was fun..learnt fr Sidah..den 2nd day learnt fr Rina..she was abit reluctant to let me print e certs n fin e job on tyme (5.45pm)..as for Sidah, once we gt e AF fr e inside drawer, straight away we print cert..watever photo i cn retrieve, she let me print e certs..if cnt, she'll scan e pix n i do e printin..tt makes our werk end on time..if not, we end late..like on Wed n Fri..wahpiang..ended at 6+pm..cos Rina did e scanning n editing while toking to Khai on e phone..was damn pissed..if im single wif no kid, i dun mind stayin till late..nw i got a kid at home waitin..n i got a few hrs to spend wif her b4 headin to Lalaland..haiz..

ydae i had to werk..as usual..Checker duty..i xtrmly tired out fr e backroom job..den i had to help wif a replacement case..wahliao..damn stress..gd ting gt FREE LUNCH..went off ard 1.30pm..smoked wif Hazrah..den i went to City Hall to mit up wif my dancers..we were goin for our training..it was fr 2.30pm till 8.30pm..damn tired..i cart-wheeled, handstand..all dis had to practise cos i told dem i feel heavy..haha..danced my hearts out..we used sum old steps fr previous performances n created new ones..i had a fall fr my cart-wheel wen Pipit entered e studio..we didnt expect hym to come..muahahaha..but it was all good..went home by MRT wif Zaini n Chin Wei..gerekz la drg..bullied me until Outram..hehe..den i was on my own till Boon Lay..fullblast my mp4..got home, had snax wif Nad n we wrestled..she giggled nonstop..haiyo..den i texted Pipit if he was home oredi..no reply..nvm lor..so i carried on wif othr tings..i asked e baby bro to open a website: M1..wen he did, i took over for an hr..mama asked if she cld upgrade her line cos she knew tt im lookin for a new hp..but she didnt wan me to use 2nd hand hp..so wen i browsed thru e online M1 shop..i saw e price range of e Nokia phones tt i aiming..so i saw Nokia E63..

it costs $98 for a week special..i texted Aira n Yan..cos fr wat i knw both usin tt hp..Yan didnt reply cos i tink she was aslip..so Aira told me abt e specs..she loves e phone cos of e user-friendly functions..but she mentioned tt e camera sux..e flash too bright..hmm..i wasnt tinking abt e camera..i was tinking of e messaging n music..she said e goodness of e phone, ttz y i grabbed lor..she was happy cos im gettin e red one; same as her..hehe..den i purchased..it surprised me tt i got a $25 discount off handset purchase voucher..muahahaha..so used it lor..Mama oso agreed..end up, we paying $73 for e phone..hehe..den we charged it to Mama's Visa card..she didnt mind..she said if it makes me happy wif wat i get for tis yr raya..hehe..cos she sees tt i love my job n becomin more responsible wif myself n Nad..she tinks i deserve a lil gift..cos ive been faithful to my job at ICA..den i nvr once complained abt changin jobs; xcpt complain of e backaches n e pain in e ass of my officer..haha..he loves to pick on us wenever he gt free time..hehe..den aftr ordering..Mama asked wen will it arrive..i say "dis Mon tapi mlm..bab kena de Mami as e main subscriber (cos under my name) n Nenek cos u r e credit card holder..hehehe.."so she informed me to come home straight fr werk..den i texted Sidah n Rina tt we nit to fin printin e certs by 5.45pm cos i gt sumtin on Mon nyte..Sidah totali agreed..but Rina was lyke "ok la..tapi kai jumpa rina la kak.."haiyo..she expects me to wait wif her till 6.30pm..no way!!haha..

ok la..i tink tis shd b it..i wanna watch my movie online..hehe..byezz..

great weekends to everyone..!!

2009-07-26T14:23:00.000+08:00

wat a week!!
itz been awhile since ive updated..been too bz n got no time la..haha..
here's my updates aite..

fr 13 - 18 July, ive been werking nonstop..wif no off days..cos of Supervisor n SO orders lor..i was damn2 tired..

on 19th July, went out wif e gfs..we had our MBD 1st Anniversary Outing..
Rin mentioned to mit up by 10am..so me, Bro n Baby left home ard 9am..took cab down to Vivo..had our brkfaz at BanQuet..texted wif e gfs..den a short tok n sms wif NiQ..*we broke up wen she came back fr Tioman*..aftr havin brkfaz, went ard to entertain Baby..we went up to Skypark..den got e tix to Sentosa..Baby fell aslip..ard 12+pm, met up wif Lizzie at e carpark..den we went to find a spot to relax..den e kids starting playin wif e "toys"...Bro chng into hys tshirt n shorts..den he entertained e lil princess n lil prince..happening...!!den abt half an hr later, e rez arrived!!whee~ttz wen e fun began!!
e surprise part was seeing NiQ there..she came wif Gegerl..but ttz e laz happy moment i had wif her..
so much under e sun..Gegerl got a lil pissy wif e husband cos wen asked to end e swimming, Mimi n An didnt wana end..haha..den we went off aftr evry1 got tgthr..Lizzie had went off at 2+pm..den our turn..e kids got a lil cranky..den got into e van n thought of goin Queenstown but end up, tk jadi..so Waney sent us home 1st..in e van, e princes (Afiqi n Daniq) da slip..lil princess juz woke up..but she kept quiet..evry1 was dozing off..NiQ lay near my knee n i massaged her forehead cos i knw tt she was havin migraines..typical la she..den once home, i took care of princess n we rested..

e nxt day was werking day mah..but i was havin major back pains n sum burning on e back..at werk, had to do i/c reg..backbone freakin painful..got home, had Mommy to urut but it was no use..nxt mrnin i cldnt get up..fuck!!den went doc..thght gt 1 day mc..bt dr zuraimie gave me 2 days..hehehe..den i rested lor at home..ate e meds n used e cream..hehe..den went bck 2 werk as usual..had sum cold war wif e colleagues..bt all ok nw..

on Fri aftr werk, i went Bugis wif Rina..bought my bag..we walked ard for quite awhile b4 finding e bag tt i wan..den aftr tt, both of us wanna grab our dinner 1st..b4 headin home..all e way i was text messaging wif Afik..he wanna mit up bt since i was still at Bugis, he went to mit hys cuzzie 1st..den aftr havin dinner at LJS, me n Rina headed off..in e mrt, me n Afik planned to mit up..at JP..den we met up lor..we smoked n tok2 nonstop..den he went off to werk while i went home..whee~

den ydae i spent e day at home wif e princess, mom n bro..den e bro went out lor..i gt a lil tiff wif a bestie of mine..she/he was makin a fuss abt me bein straight again..haha..den i say la im no more wif a butch mah..den Remy argued lyke fuck..haha..den early evening Afik msged me cos he jz woke up..he's werkin e nyte shift..so i called hym up den we tok2..kecohz..he asked to mit up..hys voice was damn soft wen he asked "b nk jumpa i tk?abg miz u la.."den i laugh nonstop..so we planned our mit up..met up at usual spot..smoked, ate a lil..den tok2 abt our "conflicts" wif our exs..haha..den he 'fessed up tt he's attached wen he was asked abt hys status by hys ex n lady colleague..den i asked hym la "dodol..u attached dgn sape ehk??" den he look at me n smiled..i was lyke "oOoOoh..."den we cuddled up..haha..but nvm la..let's go wif e flow..*bluekzz*

as for tdae, e plan was to go bowling wif e bro..but cos of CDANS havin 2 tournaments, we decided to bail out on e plan..den slack at home lor..but c if Afik wanna mit up later b4 he goes off to werk..hehe..nvm la..he's off to KL on Wed wif hys cuzzie..n mayb on Sat aftr werk, me n Rina gonna spend tyme tgthr..haha..mayb e bois wld b joinin us..haha..

ok la..nk layan my lil princess..she's been huggin my thigh n butt e whole tyme..haha..
byez...

2009-07-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

wow...

berabuk benor blog aku..muahahaha...

aner tak nye..bila off day (weekdays), i'll b entertaining e princess..as for Sat-off i'll b out wif my loved ones..princess n Niq..Sundays usuali im stuck at home..hehe..my entry tdae will b quite a drag aite..so bare wif me aite..hehe..

hw's werk been?itz been fun, though tiring..ive been werking ICA Level 6 for more den 2mths+..im oredi in my 3rd mth..n im lovin my job..seriously..itz e great bond i hav wif my colleagues, supervisors & Sr Officers..dey r great help in my learning n adjustment at werk..wen i came into e Registration Unit, ive learnt abt Oath-Taking for Minors..den aftr 2wks, i was transferred to the Cashier..where i collect payment for Registration & collecting e important documents..aftr that, ive been transferred to OT again for a wk..aftr a wk, i was told to OJT I/C registration..wahliao!!byk siol aku kena bljr..tk lama lagik, kena bljr uat Citizenship Cert..mati sak klu gini..haiz..tapi semua gerek la..helped me..i was an under-study for an old-timer for I/C registration..within a day of observing her doing e I/C, i started to open a counter n did a few cases..e most i did was 20..e least i did was 13..but itz been a bz wk for us..on wed(8th july) i had to do cashier cos we were shorthanded..

ttz abt it abt werk..

nw let's tok abt a shockin news abt myself..i jz gt attached recently..e date wld b 25th june..e date of e death of my beloved King of Pop..e man tt stole my heart for music n dance..n im forever debted to him for e passion tt i hav for music n dance..im back to dancing soon..tnx to e support i gt fr my mom n loved one, NiQ..

on tt very date, NiQ declared e inner feelings for me..n ive accepted..cos i knew her feelings for awhile oredi..cos of hw protective n caring she has for me..den, ive waited wif Rina Baby for Kai2..cos dey wanna go dinner tgthr..wen Kai2 arrived at 7.30pm, i went off wif NiQ, who ended werk oredi..den we hung out at e open carpark; behind e MRT..smoked there..den i kinda leaned nxt to NiQ n ttz whr it all started..NiQ sent me home..e cute ting abt us is tt NiQ's shorter den me..so i cnt wear HEELS wen wif NiQ..haha..

on 27th June, i wasnt werkin n NiQ was..n aftr endin e shift at 1pm, she went off to Kuda Kepang training..ended at 5pm..i was oredi waitin for her at Commonwealth bus stop..we went to Suntec to mit her sister (Micky) n e gf, Aira..had fun..kecohz..had our snacks while waitin for dis couple..den went Marina Sq to walk ard..den off to Esplanade to lepakz..den we kinda gt stared at lor..but we didnt care..haha..e gals were staring at NiQ n Micky..while e guys were staring at me n Aira..haha..den we went to toilet..Micky kena e bez qns fr a cleaner, "U boy or gal"..hahaha..we laughed sak in e toilet..took pix n went off..NiQ sent me home straight..

e following wk, we as usual mit up durin lunch to eat n smoke..NiQ controls my smoking..rabakz..den kinda kept low profile abt our rshp cos sum of e APO guys wanna gt to knw me fr Kai2..so itz been a hard wk for us..NiQ quite possessive yet lenient..we had our 1st fite cos of my temper..den we gt bck tgthr..den e past wk was ok for us..went Vivocity wif e frenz fr Kuda Kepang..gerekz..haha..our laz date was on Tues nyte (7th July) aftr werk..i went to mit Aira at AMK..den NiQ came down..went to buy her binder n sum stuff..had dinner (2couples) @ KFC..den took cab home..NiQ sent me hm 1st den she went bck to Commonwealth..but e nxt day we had a temperamental fite..den we didnt acknowledge each other at werk..i wldnt even look at her wen i pass e Security counter..den on Thrs nyte we had a gd tok..we decided to kip it low at werk..cos evry1 kinda knw we r tgthr, n pple r makin it a big issue..

ydae (10th July) mrnin we texted n tok awhile..den she was off to Tioman wif Sheena n Prem..i was supposed to tag along; she's payin for e tix..but i was tinkin of Farah..she dun even mind payin for Farah oso..n evrytin was decided tt i cldnt tag along..cos of parenz..den off she went to relax herself..so i was werkin, as usual..kept myself bz cos hp was left in e locker e whole mrnin..den aftr lunch i held onto it..den otw hm in e mrt wif Rina Baby..i gt an overseas call..it was NiQ..i was beaming brightly..haha..honestly, ive got no interest in guys evasince im wif NiQ..i dun even entertain guys' smiling at me, guys' approaching..Din msg n i dun care..i warned hym off..

aftr a short tok..we hung up..den at nyte i called NiQ..cos my Happy 128 had $112 worth of overseas value..haha..so used it lor..tok2..until NiQ fell asleep..no matter hw bad we fite, we still work it out by coolin down by ourselves..nw NiQ give me all e freedom to do anitin i wan..so i allow e same ting..but she knws tt im hers, n she's mine..ttz all tt matters..pucuk pangkal hati sendiri..we reali missed each other..NiQ mentioned tt no matter wat, she wun let me go..cos of e love i gave her since we were tgthr..n b4 we were tgthr, she fell for my manjaness n caring-ness..

tml she'll b bck n im seein her on Monday,mayb..hope she rez alot once bck..cos on Mon, Kai2 wanna give me cigs n i cnt let NiQ c..haha..noti Baby..haha..ok la..nw waiting for NiQ to miz kol so i cn kol bck..cos we've been tokin alot of tymes since laz nyte..but dunno if tnyte gt to tok or nt..scared she goes drinking wif Sheena n Prem..nvm la..jz wait lor..hehe..

ok la..nytez..c e pix of me n NiQ..(Gegerl knws her)

Damn Busy Life

2009-06-20T21:40:00.003+08:00

wahliao....im damn freakin bz sak nwadaz..smpi tk de tyme untk layan gfs ku yg trcinta..asyik melayan applicants n bdk2 keje..aku nk hilangkn stress, kena kecoh2 dgn bdk2..aru dpt relax..

tdae was my werkin Sat..met up wif Rina kt J.E..as usual..den off to Lavender..met up wif Kaikai..den went to buy nescafe latte, Milo n Barley..Milo is for Papa..wanna knw who's Papa?Dia bdk Aetos kt my workplc..Name sebenar dia kn: SUHAILA..haha..shocked?!u shd b..y i n Baby kol her Papa?Cos she's a Butch..a veri gerek n nice one..veri protective twds me n Rina..owaz spotchck if da pai rmh ke blm..hehe...

since tdae im on a werkin Sat..i had a wkday off..mine was on Tues (16 June)..Ayah was oso off fr werk..ive brought e family to CWP..to go Cold Storage..belanja sakan usin vouchers..den i topped up abit..den went to John Little..got sale..Mama bought clothes for Nad..aftr tt, Nad saw dis 1 big teddy bear..die2 she wans e teddy bear..bt we duwana gt it for her..itz too fury..n she's teething again..aftr tt, went to Kiddy Palace..got her the Tigger..but as soon as she laid her eyes on a certain bear..she grabs it..den walk ard wif both plushies..wen asked to make a choice, she wans both..cute la..den i bought both lor for her..syg anak mah..haha..aftr all tt, we went off to IMM..wanna mkn Swensen's but CWP was LONG Q..IMM nye tk...mkn besau tau..family comes 1st la..i dun mind..$115 was e damage..den went ard to do sum window shopping..Nad gt reali cranky..i had to carry her *usual position*..she slept..wah...carry her ard IMM..bought her Crocs pink sandals..*pix*aftr tt, went to the Garden Plaza.. Nad wanted to play at e mini water park..but we wldnt allow it..cos no1 was able to kip up wif her..hehe..aftr tt, we went Daiso..bought sum personal stuff for e office..laz plc was City Chain..bought e parenz new watches..same for myself n e Bro..total damage for e day: $500..i reali pamper my family cos dey deserve it..been thru hell wif me lately..esp my mom..

Din is finally back..he's been pursuin me bck..but ive rejected..cos i duwana go thru e same pain agn..nw bein totali single has been great!love it soooo much..go werk wif adk, fin werk cn lepak2 wif bdk2 Aetos b4 alik..den at home, Nad's my main attention..

e great ting abt comin home for me is havin Nad to greet me at the gate..cute kn??she wld raise her arms wen i stepped in..outside e house, i wld wash my feet n face wif e jug Mama prepared..my showers r entertainment for Nad..both mrnin n evening..she wld follow me to e bathroom..DAILY..haha..she wld call out "Mama" or "Ami"..den chase me..hug my legs..haha..uber cute..she's owaz wearin my ICA tag strap..she's my Lil ICA Gerl..

ok la..nk rez..Papa da alik fr Kuda Kepang..Adk tgh brcinta wif Kaikai..im off to entertain Nad...byezz..

blogged...~

2009-06-10T22:02:00.003+08:00

wah..itz been days since ive blogged..hehe..

ni blog pun bab kena go online..

check my PAY!!!

hahaha...

Rina Baby had her pay info thru sms..(Pac@Gov)

so i came home n switched on e comp..

Love on my lap nw..playin wif e hp (mama lizzie msg)..

saw e figs on e pay advice - june 2009,

made me hyperventilate..

OMG!!!my pay reali made me OKB!!hahaha..

cn clear my debts,bills etc..

so happening..

gonna treat my family wif scrumptious dinner, my bestie belated bdae gift..

Love's necessary supplies..whee~

ok la..tyme to slip..tml anthr hell of a day..!

nytezzz....

Zoo Outing On 3rd June 2009 - Rina Baby, Khai Bro

2009-06-07T20:40:00.004+08:00

saw e fun we had on 3rd June..hehehe...too bad aftr e elephant show i was too tired to take anymore pix..den while at FunWorld, i didnt take any pix of us swimming..haha..ok la..enjoy ur wkends..mine was orite..

sweep off e cobwebs..

2009-06-06T23:50:00.001+08:00

wahliao..byk cobwebs la sei..

im here to update bits n pieces aite..

ydae, he was finally out...he knew damn well tt itz over btwn us..he called me 1x wen i was @ e Counter doing my reports for e day..he called to ask for hys dad's hp no.

a gush of pain flowed thru me upon hearin hys voice..itz ﾂ mths since i laz heard..e tears welled up..e past caught up..i nearly broke down..instantly asked Sidah to go smoke wif me..there, i cried out..ive shed my tears agn..i shed cos e sudden miz of Din..sudden hurt fr e guys..ive laz shed my tears was 2mths ago..gosh..~it sux!!

ok..nw nk reply to my tags yg tk byk..hehe..reali duno wat to update..try to update my ZOO OUTING wif Khai & Rina (3rd June) soon k..got pix & videos..hehe..

byezzz..

Iva Babe,I Nid Ur Email Add So That I Can Invite U To My Blog.I'm Gonna Private My Blog.Thanks!! (:
-hey syg...my email address is e same as my MSN..u ade my MSN kn??hehe...
Rynn_Kawaii stay strong ok love? like i always say, be strong for Farah and whats important be strong for yourself! IMY! meet me when you're free ok? ((:
Rynn_Kawaii someone to share it with. im willing to listen.
Rynn_Kawaii love, are you seriously alright? if you need me, you know you can count on me right? i'm always here but still i'll always be by your side if you need
-hey baby..i try to mit up wif u durin e wkends..tu jek i free..cn bring farah outz..hehe..work nt ez for me la dearie..i miz all my gfs..i miz my free tyme wif dem online n offline..haiz..makin cpt i bljr 1 ting, makin bertambah keje i..haiz..dari backroom to frontline to investigating matters..i stress sei..lagi2 din da outz..lagi gila i dibuatnye..mcm ner eh.

long silence..

2009-05-30T22:06:00.002+08:00

gosh...berabuk betul blog ain nie..
been bz wif work..kinda got promoted to Cashier recently..my SO said tt i learn damn fast ttz y he's confident to put me upfront..well, ive learnt to receive documents, deal wif difficult cititzen-wannabe..haiz..

recently ive been down cos of hys upcomin return..i dunno hw to handle wen he's out..but thankfully ive got my gfs to help out..

dis wk ive been comin home by 7+pm n slept in by 10+pm..laz Wed i had a recall..cos of e H1N1..so had a recall..Mr Ng called for my location..hehe..

ive gotten reali close wif Rina..she's one of e gals at work..she's extremely manja wif me..wld hug/kiss me wenever im unaware of her nearby..had lunch ydae wif her, Rizal Lembot, Hazrah & Khai..went to a blk nearby to eat lunch..she was uber manja..wan me to suap her e rice ive bought to share wif her..den wld lay her head on my shoulders fr tyme to tyme..otw bck to office, she wld walk wif khai bt wans me nxt to her oso..manja kn..

tdae is my Saturday OFF...so stayed at hm to clean up for tml's kenduri doa slamat..not all invited..onli those close to e family..

ok la..gtg..tyme to slip wif princess..she's been havin a lot of bubble bathes tdae n wenever im givin her bathes durin e wkends..ok la..nytezz..

Hectic Week

2009-05-23T22:00:00.002+08:00

woohoo..~finally got tyme to blog!!haha..at work cnt access Internet pe..if cn oso, no time!!seriously..too many paperwork to do..Oath-taking isnt my onli task..Im doin I/C, Registration, Logistics & Admin work..damn..alot la sia..dis wk, i had my off day on Wed..but my off day wasnt well rested..i had to take care of Nadirah cos itz my obligation..i was super tired cos of e 2 days of nonstop workload..but coincidentally saw Rin wif her newborn n hubby..drg gi uat passport for their lil one..hehe..back to work: done wif dis filing, had to clear another backlog..wahliao..~im super tired n stressed..cn go nutz la sei..but comin home is bez ting 4 me..whr i gt to b pampered by Nadirah attention..n sum of e guys' nonstop cravin 4 my attention-kinda msg..haha..im such a playa..cos lyke ive said to Mama..im tired of committment..no point..wen i end up bein e one gettin hurt..so let hym (whoever) b committed while im e playa..haha..i knw..i knw..nt a nice ting..but at least im havin my happiness aftr months of sufferin..Lizzie did say tt she finali c me happier den b4..cos i am..

work has been hell cos of e local oaths n overseas missions..but im cool la..on Thrs i had a HOT date wif a special sum1..*told Lizzie e juicy details*..
he fetched me fr work..he made me salam him n kissed hym..in frnt of e guys fr my dept. ..haha..but it was nice..haha..den we rode off..halfway got caught in e rain la sial!!soaked nk mampos..aftr spendin sum tyme tgthr, he sent me home..he played wif Nadirah & left by 11.30pm..cos nxt day he's workin..PCG katakn..hehe..

tdae ive had to help wif e Application side..had to do CHECKER duty..wahliao..new ting lagik!!but ok la..partnered dgn my Oath mentor, Rizal Lembut..haha..Aida n Mak knw wat i meant..haha..so, evrytin was ok..kecoh..gt to knw e gals(senior) a lil closer..i was done by 12+pm..den hang out until 1.15pm..but i was helpin cashier..i went off at 1.30pm..hehe..went home alone..~accompanied by my faithful Mp4, SMS fr Lizzie, Eizz, Ayie & Aliff..haha..kecohz eh..tdae wore dress n pants to work..dunno wat else 2 wear nwadaz..waitin 4 my lovely uniform (3 blouse, 2 skirts, 1 pants, 2 jakets, 2 pair of shoes)..~kecohz la..gonna wear skirt most days..den pants on slack days..haha..nit to get myself a pair simple short heels shoes if im nt doin counter..hmm..uniform cpt2 la dpt..senang hidup aku!!

see e top pix?well, those r e pix taken at Lizzie's plc..read her blog entry..too tired to type out animre..haha..ok la..update soon..~bye!

back from AWOL-ing on Blogging..

2009-05-09T11:13:00.002+08:00

phew..~5 days of ICA life has passed..whee~im super happy..ive got a grp of new frenz..sum r moms..sum r kecohz..itz so much fun dis wk..=)

on 4th may..ive reached work ard 8.15am..but our orientation started at 9+am..wahliao..nearly fell aslip..but e gals n guys there r super fun n nice..im deployed to CSC (Citizen Service Centre)..but aint sure which dept. b deployed to..so we went to c e passport section..wah..~super chaotic sei..but it was fun la..hehe..gt to learn a few tings..went off by 5pm..

on 5th may..we've been deployed to Citizenship section for e mrnin..learnt hw e procedure of noncitizen wanna b citizen..met up wif my SOs, Managers..gerek la kn..den lunch at Cafe was normal..checked on Baby..as usual..den went back to passport section..ive been posted to APPLES section..e online application for passports..it was fun..den 5pm off we go..hehe..

on 6th may..we went to RBD section..birth cert section la..hehe..had a short briefin..den we got sum work to do..me n 3 othr gals kena do DEATH cert record..wah..aku tgk, aku blh menangis..ade budak2..ader babies..den aftr lunch, went to I/C dept..aftr much briefin wif e ASP, we were sent to our own dept..mine: CITIZENSHIP..haha..did sum filing wif my 3 othr partners: Kak Azlin, Aida n Fanny..altgthr...3 malays n 1 chi...hehe..5pm off to home..

7th may, report at 8am..i was posted to Registration side..but since it was too packed n too short-time, ive yet to learn in tt section..i was sittin in e Records room..doin filing, paperwork..mcm admin asst..same goes for ydae..8th may..spent e whole time at Records room..onli at 11am went to Cisco to take photo for security passes..den lunch at KopiTiam at Spore Post..hehe..at work, ive learnt alot..unlike aida..she learnt 1 ting onli..pity her..

nxt mon - wed..i'll b attendin an Induction Course at HTA..woohoo~cuci mata la AIN..haha..~!!ok la..tdae gonna be visitin Rin n her baby, Nureeqa..hehe..princess tgh tdo..ok la..nk lepakz..byez..

2009-05-02T16:26:00.002+08:00

Looking Up High...~

Uncle Iman! Farah Nak Cikit!!

ok..tdae mami abit lazy to update..tgh penat..been clearing up e tings in my room for a few days oredi..tdae finali done..all hys pix n letters ive burned dem..slept better nwadaz..

gonna b startin work on Mon..cnt wait..hehe..got a new handbag, watch, hairdo, makeup..cant wait..start at 8.30am..end ard 6pm..hmmm..~wish me luck gfs..

ok la..nk layan princess wif her nonstop "mamam"..haha..byez..

make it clear: It's Over...

2009-05-01T00:37:00.000+08:00

here i am updating durin e wee hr of e mrning..
wanna knw y?
princess finally asleep..*giggles*

tdae @ 12.37am..ive wished my babygal Yan a
Happy Birthday..she's 22 dis yr..love her dearly..we may nt contact often but she's owaz my gf fr our final yr in RP..n she's been e bez gf to tok wen i 1st
gt preggie..love her dearly..

nw, i wanna let out sum tings..itz a bottled-up feelin..itz abt Md Islahuddin..yeap..itz been a while since i wrote abt hym..im
jz gonna let e gfs n sum KPOs knw tt ive let hym go n moved on..ive got my reasons *private blog*..n itz my final decision..finali ive let hym go..cos i cnt go thru anthr
ordeal of pain wif hym agn n agn n agn..aru klr DB, da masuk alik..stress tau aku..tk serik2..da tak puas tglkn aku 8mths..den nw anthr a few more..byk
aku brkorban..ttz y ive let hym go..so, no more turning back..seriously..Raz & Etiqa r gonna make sure to that..dey duwan me to gt hurt agn..same goes for my gfs..i knw dem well enuff..itz true Baby nits a dad but she doesnt nit a dad lyke hym..so, dear relatives, read dis k..im over him..but Baby is forever mine..no matter wat u say, i wun let her up for adoption..NEVER..

finali, let it out..nw i wanna say abt my guy frenz..dey r juz frenz..yea, we do go out..but itz juz as a frenz..nutin more den tt..wen we r out, Baby will tag along..guys' n my req..cos dey wanna mit her n play wif her..so, im juz makin loads of frenz nw..new bf?not anitime soon k..cos i wanna b happy..finali!ok la..mata da nk tutup..haha..nytezz..happy labour day pple!!happy bdae yan baby..!!

RIN!!! Me n Farah doa' kn u hav a smooth delivery..!!!tell us k wat gender so cn gt gifts..hehe..muackzz..

My Saturday Date wif Mama Lizzie

2009-04-29T00:25:00.000+08:00

on Saturday ive met up wif Mama Lizzie at Marina Square..proposed meet up time was 1.45pm..looks lyke she arrived 1st..hehe..i was still in e bus Express 502 wen she texted her arrival..ive to make quite a route to gt to M.S fr Suntec..so once at M.S, kol-ed her up n found her at FOX Baby..aftr tt, off we went for our facial..had our consultation den to our private "rooms" to have our facial treatment..spent 2 n half hrs at e NY Skins Solutions..wah..~pampered la sei aku..haha..aftr e treatment, went to put back our make-ups..haha..*cnt beat e gorgeous Lizzie*..took e bus ride to Bugis..(pix at Lizzie blog)..once there, we went to look for ATM n Lil Mafia wif Auntie Lin..hehe..kecoh la sei..hehe..had our early dinner 1st..i was starving cos mrnin hadnt any brkfaz due to sum issues..

aftr dinner, we walked ard at Bugis Junction..suddenly Lizzie pulled me aside n whispered to me abt wanting Shoes or Bag..i was torn but i knw tt im gettin e shoes i love kt Moda..so ive opted for Bag..unknowing e budget she has..ive went ard..sumhw nothing caught my eye..until we went to BHG..wah..so many..saw 1 bronze n anthr black..im torn btwn both..so tok to her 1st..checked e prices cos gt discounts..den she happily let me choose e black one..wah..~happy banget..love e bag so much!!da la kena pampered wif facial..nw e bag..im super happy..*tnx sweetheart*

aftr tt ive went off..knw-in my mom's nagging..but she knws tt once im out wif Lizzie, i wun b hm too early..haha..den at home, showed her e bag..gonna look great on e 1st day of werk..Mama kept e bag to avoid me fr usin it b4 work strt..haha..so.....*rubbing palms together* cnt wait for dis coming Monday!!hehe..

ok la..nit to tuck myself to slip..been bz lately..cos of tutoring...preparing for P5 n P6 test n revision papers..price: $50/wk...muahahaha..4-5hrs/day..hmm..gt free meals, nonstop snacks n drinks..haha..best!!cn slack aftr 7pm wif my cousin to watch tv..haha..while her children go Ngaji..haha..ok la..gtg..nk arrange lagu den slip..=)

lil update..

2009-04-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

gonna do sum lil update..

*17th April 2009*
- met Raz n Etiqa by 7.45am at void deck
- drove around to look for Maxwell Road
- got lost a few times *LOL*
- reached MND Complex by 9.30am
- Raz n Etiqa drove around while waiting
- at the Formalities, had to sit next to the HR Officer
- signed my forms
- talked wif some of the guys n gals of soon-to-be ICA Specialist
- by 12.30pm, it was done..e ladies cn leave..
- went down n quickly top-up my prepaid
- called them to pick me up
- stupid guys kept starin n smiling at me *married idiots*
- once been fetched, we drove around & bought FOOD!!
- went Fortcanning Park..
- chilled till ard 5+pm..
- drove off & reached home at 6+pm..
- Raz n Etiqa hung out at my crib..
- dinner together..
- dey showered at my place..
- ard 9+ i tink dey went off..
- got news aunt at grandma's plc..
- mama wanna go visit..

*18th April 2009*
- breakfast wif e family
- Mama n Bro went Eunos to visit Aunt
- stayed home wif Baby n Ayah
- at noon, Ayah went out to Tampines to deliver MonaVie
- Baby slept by 4pm until 8pm
- Mama told me what happened there
- everything was cool
- 11pm Death News: Aunt Passed Away

*19th April 2009*
- Mama went to e funeral
- Ayah went to send MonaVie
- Baby behaved
- nothing much happened

*20th April 2009*
- stayed home with Mama n Baby
- Ayah went to get hys work uniform
- kecoh wif Mama & Baby
- im finali a Star 500 Distributor!
- 7.30pm went Kak Wati's crib
- taught Ryan Matin maths (homework)
- slack around fr 9.30pm till 10+pm
- went home & slip wif Baby

*21st April 2009*
- home-breakfast
- fetched Iman fr sch @ 12+
- got msg fr Eizz; wanna mit up *aftr a wk*
- walked home wif Iman, Eizz reached void deck
- saw hym fixing bike *break dia bocor*
- den sent Iman home, brought Baby down to meet Eizz
- Baby was kinda shy but still can smile2 at hym
- let her sit on e bike wen he was done
- scared her a lil
- Eizz wanna go lunch wif me n Baby
- went up to get e stroller while he parked hys bike
- walked all e way to McD
- @ McD; hys treat
- pampered Baby alot
- went back to slack nearby cos Ayah still home wif hys fren
- smoked a stick each
- he took a short nap *didnt upload pix =)*
- took pix wif Baby
- sent me n Baby home & took pix wif me
- @ 4pm went Kak Wati's house agn; teach tuition
- @ 6.45pm tuition ended
- Nabella & Ryan went to Ngaji
- Kak Wati sat n had a chat wif me *forever my big sis*
- she adjusted my eyebrow n taught a lil makeup skill
- Abg Nass came home & i left
- got home; washed up & put Baby to slip
- @9pm login Laptop

so much details eh..got inspired sum of e gfs tt wrote their entry in pt form..hehe..enjoy e pix oryte..laz pix was give to me by Eizz..itz my wallpaper on my hp..haha..love it!!*qns: hav i moved on? ans: processing*

ok la..tyme to rez..nytez..

Birthday Celebration..

2009-04-15T13:14:00.003+08:00

here i am, wanna tok abt my bdae celebration..

Mon (13.04)
ive left home ard 4+pm..Raz fetched me fr home..den drove off to JCC..met up wif HR..n left..we went IMM to fetch Etiqa..while waitin, we went Giant to buy Baby's cupboard..he bought sum snacks cos he was tinkin of hangin out sumwhr to chill..bought ALOT of snacks..esp. SUSHI..hehe..he let me choose..wah..~love hym!!haha..den aftr tt, we met up wif Etiqa..Raz had bought sum cakes at Sweet Recipe..den off we went..their plan was to go Japanese Garden but cldnt find e entrance..den went to Mt Faber..haha..gt a lil lost agn..i was at e backseat..was cryin for sumtyme..missed Eiz veri much..but wat to do..no1 cares..Raz saw e emotions; he toned down e volume n tried to pujuk me..at Mt Faber, we ate e snacks, took pix..den, Etiqa made me spin ard for abt 10 tymes..as soon as we were done spinning, dey sang Happy Bdae song to me..i was nearly in tears..Etiqa hugged me n we ate tgthr..kecohz..~aftr tt, Raz sent me home..

he was happy wif e MonaVie gel..it works for hym..he became more energetic n appetite controlled..tk lama lagi dpt la my pocket money fr MonaVie..hehe..cos Raz gt 2 frenz interested in e items..haha..ok la..

Tues(14.04)
on this date, ive received alot of sms fr my gfs n exbfs..den ive received kols fr e guys ive knwn at Tagged..sang me hapi bdae songs..sweet..haha..den in e mrnin, ive went out ard 9+am..went to Bt Batok..for a haircut..wanna knw y?im gonna strt workin at ICA on 4th May..!!woohoo~got e kol n tdae(15.04) gt their letter..yes ar!!

aftr e haircut, ive went off to Queenstown..met up wif Eizz W..he went to send hys bike to e workshop..aftr tt, we took MRT back to Wdlnds..hehe..there, we went for a movie..Fast n Furious 4..i love e cars..damn hot!!haha..Van Diesel's hot!!woohoo~aftr tt, we went for lunch..I ate BBQ Chicken Rice set..Eizz W ate Honey Lemon..we tok-ed abt e movie, Baby, family, etc..
den we went over to a park nearby to lepakz..ate chips, chocs n drank sodas..hehe..he gt sleepy n asked if he cld lie hys head on my lap..i said ok..den he lay there n slept..haha..went off by 7+pm..cos i knw e family wun b celebrating..got home by 8+pm..he sent me home b4 goin to mit up wif a fren..

once at home, i took care of Baby n went to slip early wif her..was disappointed wif e family bt dun give a fuck la..dis sept im nt gonna celebrate their bdaes..fr nw on, im celebratin hys bdae, Baby's bdae n mine..go to hell wif e rez..damn pissed..~!!

ok la..here's 2 pix for u to c e diff..

Shoulder-length Hair Ain

Short Hair Ain - Punkish Style

amcm? e new hairstyle on my 23rd bdae!!haha..hubby's gonna screw me up if he knws ive cut my hair n broke my damn promise!!haha..itz nt an option bt an order..haha..gonna look extra HOT fr nw on..dis fri goin MND complex to sign my appointment letter..woohoo~

great weekend!

2009-04-13T13:23:00.002+08:00

how was ur weekends?
mine was jz fine..i love spendin my weekends wif lil princess..despite her testing my every lil patience..
e family may b a huge pain at tymes, i still stood by them no matter wat..

ydae ive went to my great aunt's plc at siglap..wenr wif babylove...raz fetched me n her ard 11.30am..den we drove off..raz gt a lil lost otw..haha..smpi masuk tiong bahru n orchard..haha..org aru 1st tyme bwk kereta on hys own..he rent e car for ydae n tdae!sweet kn..he pampers me n Etiqa alot..cos of our bdaes..haha..

den once we able to exit to ECP, den off we went to Siglap..haha..nearly got lost agn..but we saw familiar buildings to our great aunt's plc..so evrytin was ok..she cooked alot sei!!i had to kejar2 wif babylove..becos she was unfamiliar wif e plc..she didnt cry but jz tt she wld chase me n clung on tite to my leg..wenever sum1 try to get near her..but wen pple wanna kiss her, she hulur her cheeks..haha..cheeky kn..

evryone loves her..seriously..played wif her..fed her wif her Heinz food..den cukup time, she cranky n wanna slip..wah..~dpn org, tdo senang...haha..Nenek asked Etiqa to go n grab a pillow for babylove..who was oredi aslip..haha..den Nenek,Ayie n Cik Adi went out for jemputan nearby..left us onli at home..haha..e owners of e house nt at home; but e guests..haha..but seriously we made ourselves comfortable..lepak2 lor..

ard 4.30pm we left..cos raz nit to send me n babylove back b4 dey head down to watch CATS@ Esplanade..once home, bathed babylove n fed her wif her milk..let her play awhile..den she fell aslip..hehehehe..watched tv until e parenz came home fr their visitation to my uncle at Tampines..

wah..gerek kn..haha..she's not such a handful to me..hehe..

tdae nit to go JCC to collect my pay..den sum tings tt i forgotten to take fr my locker..aftr tt, off to IMM..to intrvw at Swensens..hehe..

ok la..ni nk gt ready before my driver come..haha..

tml im goin CWP to watch Fast n Furious 4 wif a fren..hehe..riding babe!

i try to put pix abt tml..hehe..ydae's pix nit to ask fr Etiqa..haha..bye..

updates..depression..

2009-04-11T11:45:00.002+08:00

*Private updated*

today,im goin CWP to buy my lil one's food..
she misses her food veri much..
ydae i had a gr8 nyte wif her..
juz me n Baby..
she was well-behaved n super manja..
fed her fave whipped potato..some fries..
den she fell aslip aftr her dinner..
it was peaceful for me..

ard 9.45pm she woke up n played by herself..
she played wif her toys..
den run to me..
cuteness..
den she asked for her milk..
i went to e kitchen to make her milk; she chased..
kept calling "Ami!"
cute..haha..

10.30pm e family came home..
she was in my arms..
aftr hangin ard wif e fam,
11.30pm we slept..
both tired out..

dis mrnin went TradeHub21..
to collect e MonaVie items..
e orders r in..
payment yet been made..
nit to send out e items soon..

tml gonna go Siglap wif...
Cuzzie, Etiqa n Baby..
visitin my granny..
she misses Baby..
Cuzzie will b drivin!!
woohoo~

ok la..gonna gt ready for CWP!!
haha..
byez..

regrets...

2009-04-09T17:36:00.002+08:00

i shd hav heeded her advice..but e way she presents it, hurt me deeply..
nw, e family n i hav decided..aftr much tinking thru agama..
wat hits me e worst fr evryone was "tk kn nk kasi baby mkn dari duit haram, wlupun kau keje halal tapi haram terlindung?"
i dun wan tt to happen..
wlupun kita tk mkn atau minum..
come to tink of it, aftr e guests fin eatin or drinkin, im e one to lift their plates n glasses..
e excess drink dripped fr e rim, e excess food on e side of e plates..
e dripped food on e table..
itz my duty to clear the tables, throw away excess food/drink..
on tues 1 of e customer brought a dog..fuck!i gt a damn fear of dogs!
it nearly sniffed my shoes..
fuck!!

so aftr much tokin to abg azmi, e manager, & wif e parenz..
ive let go of my job..
abg azmi undrstood..he didnt scold or wat..
he went thru such matters oredi..

but tdae,ive received gd news fr Etiqa..Raz's so-called gf..
it seems tt im given a chance for intrvw at Swensen's IMM..whee~
im takin up part-time 1st..
if cnfrm no other job offers..esp Police..
den i upgrade to FullTime..

but Kak Nora fr NTUAC called me ydae..
she gt my no. fr Erisyah..
she called to ask khabar me n farah..asked abt din..
nvm abt tt..
she said to irene fong if gt any vacant, call me back..
haha..
den she oso said if gt convocation, she'll ask me to work part-time..
haha..

ok la..
nk layan princess agn..
tdae been hectic..
tml oso..
im goin CRAZEE!!

ive finally let out in e letter tt im closin my heart to hym..n any guys..
cos im reali hurt nw..
hope he understands..
bye..

Sweet Sabo Saturday...~

2009-04-05T11:59:00.002+08:00

heyheyhey...
im here to update on my sweet Saturday..notice e title..?haha..later u knw y..haha..*if u r watchin e videos, kindly lower e volume..wldnt wanna burst ur ears wif e screamin n shoutin of me n my nieces n nephews*..

aniwaes, ydae i wasnt able to wake up in e mrnin to go breakfast wif e family..dey knew tt i was still in pain on e shoulder n my fever was subsiding..i woke up nearly 11am cos dey stayed out a lil later den usual..cos givin me sum peace..princess wldnt stop enterin my rm to pester e mommy to wake up..haha..dey bought me Nasi Ayam Penyet..once ive showered n settled down, i took my breakfast..princess was attackin me fr behind..she kept biting my back..thnk goodness she onli got 2 bottom teeth..haha..ive to feed her bit by bit..my arm was better onli e injection area still a lil sore..ard 2+pm, me n Mama went to JP..wanna gt Nabella her bdae gift..she's 12 tis yr..found e perfect top for her at JL..aftr much walkin ard n guidin Mama ard e new mall, i saw a nice black necklace fr This Fashion..she bought it for me!!whee~den went to Levi's..bought e bro's tshirts (2 for $29.90)...haha..cheap!!!haha..den went to buy sum lunch n went home..princess was cranky at home..made e grandfather angry n lost e patience..played wif her n put her back to slip..

ard 5.30pm we all got dressed n prepare to go off to Boon Lay..my aunt's place..my cousin called to say tt her daughter was on her way home fr a kenduri at Woodlands..so we went over..hung out..wen e tyme comes, off all e lights n wen Nabella (e bdae gal) entered thru e front door, we shouted "Surprise! Happy Birthday!" she was shocked n nearly ran out..haha..den e cake singing, cuttin n eating started..whee~eating part was tough for me cos Baby was clingy..played wif e cousins but aftr awhile, ran over to me n hugged my leg..haha..once passed over to her grandfather, e cousin asked me to eat..ard 8.30pm, e kids (incld Me) were asked to go behind on e house..e games were starting..

1st game: Pop e Balloons Wif e Butt..The Fastest Popper Wins..!

Ryan(in specs) won cos hys timing was 4.06s..den Shah (in blue shirt) timin was 4.12s..Farah(in white shirt) timing was 14.01s..haha..it was uber noisy n kecoh..Baby was wif her nenek nearby me..

2nd Game: Money in e Flour..The 1st to Find e 10cents coin wins!

the winner was Kiki..she was at e darker side..wearin a blue top..she found e coin 1st..hehe..Mira cried cos her face n top was covered wif flour..typical la she..muz b pretty all e tyme..age: 6yrs..haiz..den e sabo 1st round started..Nabella was attacked wif e flour by her step-father..Abg Naz ran off once e sabo started..i, too, joined in..haha..aftr e running ard, we carried on wif e next game..

3rd Game: Egg Race..e 1st to reach e finishin line w/o droppin e egg fr e spoon, wins..!

while video-ing the winners, i was hit hard wif an egg by my cousin, Kak Wati..it totali started e war..we chased each other wif flour, eggs..chaoz..!!Abg Naz (3rd April) ran far away already wif hys youngest son..e kids chased hym..Alisyah cried..so i had to coax her..*soft-hearted aunty*..den we waited for hym to come back, sabo-ed hym rabak2..wen it was done, dey started to play wif water..i cabotz inside n showered..haha..my aunt n other cousins saw my "look" n laughed..den wen i was in a cleaner shirt, Kak Wati n Abg Naz said "aik, kak..bawak spare baju.."haha..

aftr havin so much fun, Baby ran over to me screamin "mama"..she was ecstatic to c me..haha..ard 10pm we went off..walked all e way home..showered agn..den off to LaLa Land..hehe..ok la..gtg..nk rez..tml workin..10am strt..today slacked at home cos of HEAVY RAINS...plan to go CWP; cancelled..

**hw was ur weekend?**

super bitchy + tiring FRIDAY!!

2009-04-03T22:36:00.006+08:00

today ive went out ard 10+ am..went to Mak Intan's plc(Clementi) to sell my untouched kain sutera..but sadly, she wasnt home but her son was..bein a cautious person, i said tt if Mak Intan wans e item, i cn come by on Sunday..so e son said ok..
aftr tt, i took e mrt to Lot 1..went to mit up wif Lizzie..wanna hav brkfaz tgthr n gt sum issues to tok to her..took pix of Eindra..totali forgot to take our own..haha..nvm la..had lunch tgthr..Eindra was cranky due to sleepiness..kesian Mama dia..smpi tk tau aper Eindra nk..*i knw e torture beb..hehe* aftr tt, we walked ard Lot 1 den she went off to HDB office..as i went to e intrchng..
reached there ard 2pm..walked slowly to the plc..checked in..waited for the names to be called..spent half an hr onli..as usual lor..here's e ting; 1st we fite over e letter issue..2nd we try to cool each other down..3rdly sumtin private..aftr tt, ive texted wif e cuzzy to mit up at Woodlands..
waited for tt Mat Rep Wannabe for 15mins at e intrchng..haiyo..i oredi told hym i was otw, he cn summore delay..*nature calls*..den he accompanied me to Raffles Medical Clinic..nit to take my Typhoid injection..waited quite awhile..we chatted alot..he told me sumtin nice n it perked me up..hopefuli wen e tyme comes, she'll b there to support us..
aftr e injection, we started our "shopping"..tnx to Mama's generosity..she knew tt i nit e items ready b4 Monday..went ard to look for SHOES..end up bought these

at Metro..e price: $19.90..brand: B.U.M Equipment..i feel so lyke a teenager wen i tried e shoes..haha..actuali i wanted size 38..den e sales nyonya lyke fuckin rude..she jz said "no stock" den turn away..i blew my top..i hate it wen pple do tt..excuse me, u r in a service line for FGS..!den Raz had to cool me down n asked e manager instd..gt myself size 39 n itz great..paid e shoes n off we went to look for my black pants..
aftr much search..n Raz had to b my calculator so tt i wun overbudget..finali he ushered me to dis grand shop n looked ard..saw this straight cut pants..love dem!!

sory for e bad picture..bad lighting la..haha..each pants cost $45..i bought 2 for $73.50...haha..2nd piece at half price..i love e pants cos i cld use it for work at e outlet n if im able get a Admin job..da tk pyh shoppin sluar..haha..cuzzie reali made me hapi tdae..he accompanied...he fashion-advised..he reali made e heartache n frustration go away..

got home, e parenz wan me to go buy dinner..haiyo..i was in pure agony due to e injection..but bein a dgr kata daughter, i went wif e mom..bought dinner n gt home..i totali cldnt layan princess..e left arm lyke paralysed..sms e cuzzie..he wld chck on me evry 30mins/1hr..hehe..sweet kn..?as i rested, i took this video..

see what tt lil princess did?shockin ryte?haha..she's barely 1yr 1mth lei..haiyo..she wld pounce on me wen i lie down at her napping plc..aftr gettin scolded by her grandparenz, she stopped..haha..den she slept..my arm gettin better, but fever startin up..nvm..tml gonna stay hm e whole mrnin n noon..bt nyte tyme i gt 2-in-1 bdae party to attend..theme: wild & dirty..hmm..wat shd i wear..i gt sum wild clothes..i knw wat she meant by dirty, wen i texted e cuzin..sabo tyme!!both to her 1st daughter & her husband!!hahaha..ok la..i gtg oredi..tyme to rez..body aching..enjoy watchin e vid eh..anitin personal comments, do text/msn me personally..tnx..

Rynn!!Lizzie!!Rin!!Gegerl!!Waney!! i miss u babes!!! i miss e babybois!!! dating soon aite..wen i gt a wkend off..hehe..nytez...

bloody pissed..oops..she did it agn..

2009-04-02T22:59:00.003+08:00

im fuckin pissed ryte nw..
im feelin damn shitty..
im fucked up..

ive juz punched e reflection of my face..
i wished i cld punch my own face..

baby knows mami's anger..
baby hugs mami alot..
baby kisses mami tears away..
baby wun let nenek touch her..
baby "growl" at nenek since e incident..

i cld always count on her to make my fuming temper die down..

*a note to Rynn*
sweetheart, tnx for listenin to me jz nw..tnx for bein there for me wen i nit u to b there..i knw itz hard for us to mit up..but i believe tt our bond is gettin stronger evrytime we hang out, ryte?we may onli knw each other for a few mths; but u've been a gr8 gf for me to let it out too..love u so much..muackzz..

*a note to Lizzie*
syg, i tau u bz nwadaz..tu bab i jarang text u abt my problems..but u shd knw tt u r bez gf k..i cn nvr pull thru w/o u..rmmbr tt..?our 1 yr anniversary comin soon kn??hehe..syg, tnx for makin me smile wif e sms abt sex, guys, flirts, etc..haha..tnx for takin care of me n farah on behalf of him..we may seldom mit, but u r owaz in my heart..love u MALOTS..muackzz..

*a note to Rin, Waney & Gegerl*
darlingzz..we may nt b close but i cld owaz count on u to help out in listenin to my problems..ive learnt so much fr all my gfs..seein y'all hapi wif ur marriage (though gt probs); i wan tt too..tnx for bein e bez gfs to me..e lunches, e mit ups..tnx so much..love y'all..muackzz..

*to everyone*
my dear darlings..i love y'all so much..i appreciate e times we had, we spent..im thankful to knw all of u..we went thru alot..e love, e misunderstandings..i would like to say tnx for makin me a part of ur frenz..&& tnx for loving Nur Farah Nadirah wif all ur hearts..tnx so much..

-once im financially stable, im gonna organise a Blogger GFs Picnic..So i cld mit up wif ALL of mf Blogger GFs (yg da jumpa & yg blm jumpa)..hehe..ok lah..tyme for bed..nytez..-

My Sweetest Angel

2009-04-01T16:24:00.003+08:00

tdae ive been blessed wif e bez news..
TCC called..watz TCC??*The Coffee Club*

i was minding my own business on my laptop while watchin my beloved gf workin..hehe..met up wif her ard noon to hang out..she misses me loads..haha..
aftr havin my "High Tea" at Starbucks..her hubby left for work..den we hung out until tyme for her to go off to work..she strts at 2.30pm..
as i sat there; juz login to my lappy & wireless, ive gotten e call..it was Jastina..e lady who interviewed me on laz fri..at Hong Kah North CC jobfair..anjuran SWCDC..had my interview there on e spot..she called askin hw i was n etc..den bam!she said ive gotten e job..she asked wen cn i strt..b4 i said anitin, she
asked if i cld strt on MONDAY..i said can cos im too bored to stay at home too long..haha..den wen asked to come to HQ to sign e appointed letter, she asked to come on Fri..woah~i cldnt make it..cos of e visitation..i nit to tell hym personally of e job..den she asked to come TOMORROW~!yeah..i cld
make it tml..so ive made arrangement to c her tml at 3pm..whee~to sign my appointed letter..e salary is lil but it will do..
she said if i gt anthr job offer ttz better, i jz nit to send in my resignation letter; give 1 wk notice..

aniwaes, c e pic of my princess..yeap..ttz her..her nenek tied her hair..cos Baby rimas wif her long curly hair..so wif e tied hair, she's more neater..see her pose..cute kn?!hehe..ok la..i gtg..gt sum stuff to do..byez..

100 Random Facts...

2009-03-31T17:10:00.000+08:00

100 Random Facts About Ayien:

1.Real name: Nurulain
2.Nickname(s): Ain, Ayien, Nurul
3.Star sign: Aries
4.Male or female: Female
5.Primary School: Xingnan
6.Secondary School: Clementi Town Secondary
7.JC/Poly: Republic Polytechnic *drop-out*
8.Hair color: black
9.Long or short: Shoulder-length
10.Loud or Quiet: LOUD
11.Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
12.Phone or Camera: Camera
13.Health freak: Nope
14.Drink or Smoke?: Both cn?
15.Do you have a crush on someone?: My besties
16.Eat or Drink: Im more of drinker den an eater
17.Piercings: Yupz
18.Tattoos: Love dem..

HAVE YOU EVER?
19.Been in an airplane: Yup
20.Been in a relationship: Yup
21.Been in a car accident: Nope; but BIKES
22.Been in a fist fight: Yup

FIRSTS:
23.First award: Best Music Performance
24.First best friend: Nana Banana
25.First Girl/Boyfriend: Khairulnizam
26.First crush: Khairulnizam
28.First vacation: Terengganu
LASTS
29.Last person you talked to: Hubby's dad
30.Last person you texted: dearie cuzzie
31.Last person(s) you watched a movie with: Rizal *e buddy*
32.Last food you ate: Nasi Ayam Penyet
33.Last movie you watched: BOLT
34.Last song you listened to: Mrs So-So
35.Last thing you bought: Notebook
36.Last person you hugged: My babylove

FAVES:
37.Food: Chicken
38.Drink: Blueberry
39.Clothing: Dresses
40.Book(s): Nora Robert
41.Song(s): Is It You..
42.Flower: Roses
43.Colors: Pink, white, black, red
44.Movies: Horror, romance, R21..haha..
45.Phrase: Selenger smlm blm abis; dah tambah selenger nari..
46.Subject(s): Mediacommunication

IN 2008, Did You
47.Kissed in the snow: nah..~
48.Celebrated Halloween: No
49.Had your heart broken: Yup
50.Went over the minutes on your cell phone: Duh~
51.Someone questioned your sexual orientation: My exgf..haha.
52.Came out of the closet: Was cleaning for Hari Raya..
53.Gotten pregnant: Gave birth in 2008
54.Make someone cry: Yup
55.Done something you've regretted: Mostly yes..
56.Broke a promise: Nope
57.Hid a secret: Yup
58.Pretended to be happy: Loads of times
59.Met someone who changed your life: Yup, she's my angel
60.Pretended to be sick: Most of e tyme
61.Left the country: Yup
62.Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it: woohoo~yeah..
63.Cried over the silliest thing: Yup
64.Ran a mile: Nope
65.Have part-time work: Yupz..
66.Stay single the whole year: not e whole year..fr March 08 - Nov 08..single but taken..

CURRENTLY:
67.Eating: Nope
68.Drinking: Nope
69.Doing: Tis quiz & listenin to music
70.Listening to: Music on my mp4
71.Plans for tomorrow: Library agn...
72.Waiting for: My hubby dearest

YOUR FUTURE:
73.Want kids?: yeah...ive gotten one..i wan 3 more..haha
74.Want to get married?: Yup
75.Careers in mind: Police

HAVE YOU EVER :
83.Lost glasses/contacts: Yupz
84.Ran away from home: A couple of times
85.Mistaken anyone for someone else: Yeah
86.Lost your way before: some place new
87.Broken someone's heart: yeap
88.Been arrested: hah! yeah..durin sec days..
89.Cried when someone died: yup

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
90.Yourself: kinda
91.Miracles: yup
92.Love at first sight: yup
93.Heaven: yup
94.Santa Claus: nope
95.Sex on the first date: hmm...depends..haha..
96.Kiss on the first date : yeap..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97.Is there one person you want to be with right now? : yupz
98.Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?: not so.
99.Do you believe in God: yup

THIS IS THE 100TH QUESTION
100.Do you think this is a best random quiz ever: Nope..im juz killing tyme..

NOW TAG 5 PEOPLE TO DO THIS..
Lazy la..Im juz bored...

Weekends For Mami & Baby

2009-03-31T11:38:00.004+08:00

e weekends were as usual, mendakz..Friday i stayed home cos of e damn flu..plus, im too tired to go out..e whole mrnin i was playin wif e princess..took care of her needs..feed her fave Chicken Porridge..gave her milk..
i love my mrnins wif her..she wld cheer me up wif e cute smile..den
her mischievious character..haiyoz..she's a total handfull but she's worthit..hehe..
i love bein a mother!hehe..
in e afternoon, ive went to Hong Kah North CC..South West CDC had made a Career Fair..so me n Ayah went..he applied as Porter at Courts..ive applied Customer Service Assistant at The Coffee Club..wen i decided to apply, dey requested me to queue up for an interview *behind e huge poster*..so i queued n went for e interview..e interview went well; as i was asked to apply thru The Coffee Club official application form & wait for 3workin days for their call..for e 2nd interview..*wish me gd luck*
aftr tt, went home wif e father..once home,
itz Mami & Baby tyme!..she has become super CLINGY nwadaz..i dun understand y..she used to b avoidant..but ever since her 1st bdae, she has decided to clung to me veri tightly..
in e evening, i went to PAWN my laz gold bracelet..e money had to clear my bill, Baby's milk n pampers..

on Saturday mrnin i had a HUGE argument over Din until i was kicked outta e house..so ive left home n went for brkfaz at McDonald..hung ard n went over to Nana's crib..sooth my ego there..talked to Nana..made myself clearer in mind n went hm..
got hm n rested..until tyme to go off to Afiqi's bdae party..both me n Baby wore WHITE..so here are e pix..

Mami All Dolled-Up

Baby All Dolled Up

Baby With Nenek

Gegerl & Afiqi Elriano

Daniq wif Waney; Eesha wif Rin *didnt catch her face..hehe*

went off early cos Baby gotten cranky..but got to mit up wif all my gfs (Rin, Waney, Gegerl & Lizzie)..ttz e bez part..aftr e party, went over to Ibu Tipah's plc..to get sum dinner she brought home fr work..aftr tt, went home n rested..

on Sunday ive stayed home..Mama & Ayah went to a funeral at Admiralty..so left me, Baby n Hanif at home..but, Baby reali tested my patience in e aftrnoon..she was oredi slipy but still wanted to play..end up play wif e uncle until fite..den Mami lost her patience n end up screamin n shouting at both of dem..my bro gt scared n went aside..princess gt scared n cried..nonstop..she vomitted her milk out n carried on cryin..finally e uncle cldnt bare to hear her cries, n carried her to e kitchen..put her to slip instantly..den he hand her over to me; she woke up n snuggled up in my arms..slept for a mere 20mins..den played agn..she wldnt dare to make so much noise..she behaved well..kinda..

ok la..nit to continue my work..byez..

Back To What You Know

2009-03-24T14:31:00.002+08:00

"Back To What You Know"

[Verse 1]
I don't know where to begin
Fighting a war I cant win
Fighting a memory
Something that used to be

No matter how hard I fight
All of my strength and my might
Keeps defeating me
It just keeps defeating me

[Bridge:]
So what I'm trying to say
I know what's happening
Your body's here with me
But your heart and your mind is still with him

[Chorus:]
Go back to what you know
Go back to where you know your heart is
Girl, just be honest (this is impossible)
This is impossible
We'll never work if you don't want it
Girl, you belong with him, so go back to what you know

[Verse 2]
Telling me things you used to
Do when he was with you
How he was o' so sweet
The way that he used to treat you
And since you just cant
Keep him out of your mind
It's obvious to me that I'm
Not where you want to be
baby you don't want me

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
And if that's really what you want
I will not stand in your way
You wanna be free
I will let you be
I'd rather you happy
Then miserable with me
Back to what you know

[Chorus]

Said ain't no way to make this last,
You're stuck in the past,
Pedal to the gas,
And drive away...

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see e lyrics? tiz song was given to me by a buddy of mine.. who wanted me to move on n let go of e man.. but end up, it was no use.. he decided me to listen to tis song.. n it reali hit me hard.. i wasnt able to let go of e past.. so he told me to go bck to hym.. cos ttz my happiness.. he had to let me go so i wun b torn btwn 2 guys.. cos i was honest to hym, tt i cldnt forget e past.. i still love e past.. so he had to leave.. e song reali let evrytin out for hym.. *tnx Wan*

honestly...im dying..

2009-03-22T23:24:00.005+08:00

im so sick n tired of telling her to let hym go..im sick n tired of her makin her bf suffer; cos she cnt let go of e ex..come on la..he's happier nw, let hym go..dulu masa dia tk nk move on,kau suro dia move on..skg dia da move on, kau tk blh let go..mepek sakz..
she finali asked me if she asked me to let my hubby go, wld it hurt me..i said it wld..but if he's happier wif sum1 else..let hym..n itz my turn to move on n let sum1 else love me..cos if da jodoh, tk ke mane..if im meant for hym, 1 day we'll b tgthr agn..if im nt, den ive gotta let go..it wld kills me hard bt i knw he deserves to b hapi; if i cnt make hym hapi..
ok, enuff of tt..im gonna rant abt othr tings..
princess is gettin fast on her heels..she wld walk super2 fast..we wld ask her to slow down.."aru lesen L da nk pecut"..haha..uber cute la she..nw her words clearer..she wans food-"mamam", nenek-"nek", yayie-"ayie", mami-"mami", no, taknak, aper, abah-"baba", ball-"ball", elmo-"momo"..cute kn..haha..she grows up so fast..
btw, ive applied for Spore Police Force!!woohoo~under recommendation of my probation officer n ASP Kamil..whee~pray hard i gt e intrvw n cn strt my 6mths training..hehe..yupz..6mths..gonna b reali bz..mcm bdk NS sak..haha..probably b bookin in by sun nyte n book out sat mrnin..haha..gosh..~long days w/o farah..but itz for e bez ryte..hmm..govt. benefits r way off bttr..=)
ok la..gtg..tml gt a jobhunting date wif Rynn Kawaii..*confirmed already*..nytez..

my unperfect, yet lovely, relationship...

2009-03-21T19:56:00.001+08:00

gosh..im missin my hubby damn much!!wat m i to do??

okok..sory..baby misses hym too..she kept comin to me n say "baba"..aww..sweetz ryte..hehe..

he's gonna come hm soon princesss..no worries..abah comin hm soon..he'll carry u agn k..i knw hw much she loves her dad..n misses hym..he oso misses her n loves her..im glad im still wif hym..yes!im wif hym still..*read tt relatives!!*

ok..here r sum pix of her n hym..enjoyz..

check out e pix..e bond..e love..well, nutin cn beat tt aite? *im done hiding*

busy life..busy week..

2009-03-18T22:01:00.003+08:00

dis week has been veri hectic 4 me..gt a couple of intrvws to head to..had lunch wif Yan tdae..had late lunch wif Raz on Mon..*duwana say anitin abt my intrvws..veri e tiring*

aniwaes, ive made up my mind. im gonna help dem veri limited. ive helped Raz n he's nw better. nw hav to help Alia. haiz. tiring but anitin to stop e fites btwn dem. irritatin tau wen Raz kept forwardin Alia's msgs 2 me. haiz.

tdae ive made a pact wif Wiwie. if once i totali stopped my bad habits, he'll stop his. cos he nits me to stop him. haha. Wiwie is my bez fren fr kindergarten. we've been frenz for 17yrs. so we trust each other. he pun gives a helpin hand wenever im in trouble. hehe.

gonna finish off hubby's letter later wen everyone's asleep. tml gt a few places to go. damn. workin + intrvws = system shutdown

ok la..
gtg.
nytez.
byez.
*ani1 wanna join me n Rynn dis saturday?sms/kol me k...*

16th March 2009...

2009-03-13T11:53:00.002+08:00

dis monday supposed to b a special day..but.....
i cant make it!!
hopefuli i cld change e time n date to another day..
*sigh loudly*

so aniwaes, im prayin hard tt i cld ace e intrvw dis mon..
haha..
nw u knw y i cnt make it to my special corner..
ive got a call juz nw..
it was my application for Admin Asst...
dis mon, itz my intrvw day..
it'll b at tanjong pagar..
woohoo~

so, any lunch dates??haha..
im broke oredi so no money to buy a decent lunch..
haha..
oklah..
gtg..
raining oredi..
byez..

Happy 1st Birthday To My Dearest BabyLove...

2009-03-08T22:30:00.002+08:00

tdae my lil princess turns to a new age..which is 1..gosh..~itz soooo fast..love her to bits..she's growin up so fast n learnin new tings..ive chngd alot tnx to her..ive learnt so much from her..im blessed to hav an angel in my life..ttz gonna b there 4 me all my life..till my dying days..

tdae ive made a bdae party for her..itz her 1st bdae party..so it was still new..n simple..ive learnt sum mistakes n planned to do a better party for her nxt yr..hehe..

tnx to e gfs tt came..i reali appreciate u all for comin wif ur kids n hubbies..it made me feel complete wif u all ard..u dunno hw hapi i am seein u all tgthr..he may nt b there; but u all made me feel tt he's there..love u all so much..*tnx for e prezzies..* farah loves dem..she's playin wif e toys oredi..hehe..

ok la..since im super whacked out, ive uploaded e pix into slideshows..hehe..enjoy k?

stood up much..

2009-03-06T21:53:00.002+08:00

ok..shd i rant out or bitch out..??

okies..tdae suppose to mit Rynn Kawaii..to go JOBHUNTING tgthr as planned laz nyte..but wen i texted laz nyte, no reply..texted dis mrnin, no reply..i was gettin irritated..e faq is tt i hate to b stood up..if u r nt able to mit, kindly call or reply my text, thank u..
aftr gettin no replies, i went off to Bugis Lib; by myself..as usual..im a loner..ttz my character..Hubby wan me to chng tt character; cnt la..haiz..wen i wanna b sociable, end up gettin hurt..

texted Sis Lisa..didnt wana make her rush ard to mit me..so i say i wun b mitin up..cos i rather b at e lib..at e lib, i went to e 7th floor section..sat at a lil corner by myself n played wif e lappy..Hubby owaz complain "Mi bila ngadap laptop 4/5 hrs blh, tapi ngadap Di main bola atau pool untk 1/2 hrs, tk blh.."haha..ttz my attitude la..cnt kick it..hehe..
msn-ed wif e fellas..kinda miss hangin out wif e gang..but a promise is a promise..*miss hym* aftr tt, i went off at ard 6pm..den walked all e way back to Bugis MRT..blasted my mp4..wat i wore tdae, reali was a head turner for everyone..haha..juz lyke ydae..haha..if Hubby knws, im sooooo DEAD..haha..*secret aite..hehe*

once i reached home, i asked Mama if itz ok if i watch You Got Served..she was ok wif it..so watched it wif my bro n ate dinner wif Princess..tml im stayin hm..gonna help rearrange EVERYTHING..ive oredi tagged e Goodie Bag..e ones wif names r for my gfs children..e no names r for my cousins' children..too many tt i cnt rmmbr..haha..sure memekak man on Sunday..hehe..

ok la..gtg..nit to tok to my hunny bro abt hys engagement nxt2 Sat..he's nervous; so is e gal..haha..byez..

The "Requested" WishList & My Bitchy Rants

2009-03-03T17:57:00.002+08:00

Nur Farah Nadirah Wishlist

NEEDS:
♥ dresses - size 4 (babies)
♥ Shoes - Size: 3
♥ caps/hats - size: L
♥ wardrobe (currently sharing with Mami)
♥ her dad *impossible*

WANTS
♥ Walker *Mami getting one*
♥ Educational Laptop
♥ Mini balls
♥ Elmo - Medium-sized
♥ Teddy Bear - small
♥ Musical toys
♥ Picture books for reading with Mami & Nenek
♥ Dibo the Gift Dragon doll
♥ Mickey Mouse; learning CDs
♥ Handy Manny & e Tools; learning CDs

finali ive brought up e list as per "requested" by Mama Lizzie..haha..

tdae im damn sick..flu, migraine, sore throat, sore eyes..damn la..i cnt go MC..cos we r short-staffed nwadaz..im juz prayin hard tt i wun b too sick at work n Baby's 1st bdae party..well, ive applied for Session Kindergarten Teacher at my area..cos itz a 5-day job n timing: 8am-5pm..teach English n Malay..FULLTYME..ive gone nutz wif my current work..e accusations w/o proof..e constant expectin me to do most of e work; cos dey r too bz entertainin e members..unfair ryte? if i do sumtin wrng, each wld fuck me upside down..at least Celeste wld watch over me..so tt i wld nvr go wrng..Michelle n Freda n Kak Mai; cnt b bothered..bt owaz wan me to handle EVERYTHING..damn ar..

im super down tdae..so much happened ydae..so much hurt n pain..ive suffered e worst ydae..i was damn pissed wif Raz n Alia..she wans hym to move on but wen he finali did, she cldnt let go..wtf?!?!im damn tired la..Alia wans me to help; i help..Raz wans me to help; i help..but nw??if u wan evrytin to go UR way, do it urself..ive got a kid to handle, parenz to handle & a bro who still nits me..dah la..im nt gonna help any1 animre!!!ttz it!!!im thru bein nice to pple!!!im thru bein kind!!!im gonna b mean n harsh fr nw on to pple tt took advantage of me..

damn fucked up oredi..gtg..byez..

stress @ work

2009-03-02T13:15:00.002+08:00

in e mrnin i told Lizzie sum gd news..
nw im given a downturn..
juz cos im e new gal..doesnt mean im at fault 100%..
skg yg jaga cash org lain, nape aku yg kena kn..
semua cash yg masuk i pass over kt drg..nie kes smlm..

tadi masa nk fax form kt RCC, my supervisor ajak bbual..
dia ckp smlm de shortage $100..dia ckp c pmpn tu da ckp dgn me..
tapi i ckp, tu pmpn tk ckp pape..cuma bising de kurang duit..
aku tgh bz dgn GA allowance..
smlm de kurang caddie untk golfer..
so sum of dem kena carry 4bags..n allowance per GA is $48..
kena kira btl2..tk nk trkurang atau trlebih..

tapi kn, uat aku heran..klu nk tuduh aku,check security cam ar..
krg kn bangga sgt dgn cam krg..
aku naik frus sei..
so end up kwn aku, Amir, jadi sasaran..kesian member..
dia yg cool me down..haiz..
den nw im hungry..haha..

smlm kt rmh aku tk mkn ar..
cos e parenz beli mkn mlm tapi tk kejut aku untk dinner samer2..
haiz..
y my life jadi gini sei..
org2 aku trust semua uat aku gini..
smlm aku nangis2 kt Amir..nangis2 kt Raz..
stress sei..
da la mcm2 brlaku lately..

Baby's bdae will go on as promised..
but nt sure hw im gonna cope wif e income aftr all dis hppn-in..

ok la..nk rez..sms2 wif Amir..
den mayb lunch kt Golfers' Terrace..n smoke wif Vanessa..
byez...

BabyLove 1st Birthday Preparation...~

2009-02-25T11:44:00.002+08:00

evryone been askin abt e princess bdae preparation..so here's e lil details..

Main Dish will be an Indonesian+Arabic dish called "Selada"..heard of it?hehe..come over den u knw..haha..
there'll b snacks..lyke Mini Roti Boyan..Nuggets, French Fries..

there'll b a small goodie bags for e kids..n will b hand-out by e Princess..

ok!! e CAKE-CUTTING session will be at 6pm!!! i wan ALL my GFS b there!!! pls..~hehe..

here's e preview of e Bdae Cake..

e cake will be ordered a few days b4 e actual day..tnx to Lizzie for intro-in me e website..hehe..ok la..gtg..princess lunch tyme..byez..

couple outfits...~HAWAII DnD

2009-02-24T13:18:00.008+08:00

here are the items tt i saw fr a BlogShop..all couple outfits..e pricin r juz ryte..im gettin dem for myself n Hubz..he kept buggin me to get couple tings..so, here are e items..fr hoodies to shirts..dis is our start-up of e couple outfit theme..he kinda gt e idea fr Gegerl's bloggie..ttz y, he wanna follow..he finds it romantic n swit..

im so lovin e shirts n hoodie..total damage on e a/c wld b $96.40 but ive yet paid..cos e pay's nt in yet..once e stuff r taken n paid, im gonna kip it safely..den wen Hubz back, im gonna show to hym n make hym wear dem fr tyme to tyme..he'll b super hapi!!hehe..

aniwaes, ydae's DnD was fun..since i arrived late wif Dear Vanessa..she was waitin 4 me..i arrived abt 7+pm..cos i thght i cldnt make it due to my menses cramp..but i did make it..haha..wore e dress, Kakak lend me..had to wear my white shawl over my shoulder..whee~e games were fun..kecohzz..Mr Pereira was there..hehe..he gave a nice speech for newcomers to JCC..haha..Iwan was sitting a few tables behind mine..i was sittin wif all e Golfing gals..i felt hys eyes piercing behind me..haha..*who's Iwan?...ask personally eh..Lizzie wld gt e idea..haha..*
aniwaes, wen it was tyme to dance..me n Vanessa went to e dancefloor n danced..haha..it was fun..suddenly, Iwan came behind Vanessa n asked if he cld dance wif me, cos it was a slow song..haha..it was embarrassing but ive lived thru it..haha..!!ROFLMAO....Iwan was HOT laz nyte..melted man..~but too bad, im HITCHED..~
aftr e dance, he escorted me bck to my seat..n off he went wif e Tech guys..guess it was tyme for dem to gt back to werk..i finished my dinner n dessert..e cramps were killing me..but tnx to e jamu i ate, it relieved a lil..
it was nearly midnyte wen it all ended..i was worried abt gettin hm..den mr HERO of mine came down fr e staircase wif 2helmets..apparently, he wanna take early leave..den coincidentally saw lil ol' me waitin at e entrance of e Main Lobby..e convo sparked..

Iwan: u blm alik lagi?
Me: blm. nk gi try call cab kt counter..
Iwan: eh..uat per..i kn de..i hntr u alik k?
Me: ok la.at least tk lmbt i smpi rmh..i tink my gal blm tdo; tgu kn i alik..

he practically juz smiled n walked wif me to hys bike..i gt a lil fear of ridin a guy's bike; aftr wat hppn-d e laz tyme cos of Hubz's curse..but i felt tt it was ok cos im oredi late n wanna get hm fast..gt on hys Yamaha KRR..off we went..reached my void deck in 10mins..cos nt much traffic..he wanna escort me all e way up, but i say no tnx..haha..so he said "i jumpa u bsk k?" i said "nt bsk..on thrs..cos i dpt 2 hari off.." apparently, he juz forced a smile..hehe..cute kn..

e bitchy ting abt laz nyte was tt my dear VIEWTY died on me wen i wanna take pix of myself wif Vanessa..damn..!!my W350i cnt save e day also..haiz..so e pix r wif Vanessa..nit 2 gt fr her soon..hehe..ok la..guess, ive ranted enuff for tdae..muahahaha..byezz~

boredom due to SUSPENSION

2009-02-21T15:05:00.001+08:00

golf course suspended due to HIGH LIGHTNING ACTIVITY...im super nervous tdae..had to press e "suspend course" button wen Cik Lan told to suspend cos i told hym gt 2 strikes overhead..he was shoutin at e walkie talkie..so i pressed lor..my heart beat soooo fast..haha..

had to kip reportin to Marshalls, Starters n Supervisor on e no. of strikes overhead..seein e no.(s) on e screen freaked me out..haha..

ok la..nk do sum paperwork..duno cn go off by 4 or nt..haha..byez..

ALOHA! Staff DnD..

2009-02-20T22:37:00.001+08:00

on Monday (23rd Feb) will JCC Staff DnD..im nt sure if im goin or nt..cos i aint gt a partner..hehe..mayb Vanessa will partner me..hehe..e theme dis yr will be HAWAII..so, obviously gonna hav loads of FLORAL..haiz..ive decided to get a nice floral dress fr StudioFrost.net; but aint sure will it arrive on tyme!!haiz..tdae ive worked e mrnin shift..same goes for tml..den on Sunday will b fr mrnin till 7pm..cos nit to cover Michelle..she took AL..haiz..okok..gd 4 me cos more OT..more pay lor..hehehe..

tdae ive been ok..had to go thru a special trainin for makin Announcements durin Weekly Tournaments n "Call Golfers to Tee-Box" Announcement..im soooo nervous bt e guys were gr8...i felt super confident..n announced well..haha..gt commented tt i gt a natural HIGH pitch..haha..*tnx to e Nasyid & Choir lessons..muahahaha..*aftr e trainin was done..i went wif Abg Saleh to go ride ard e Front Nine to see e place..wahlauwei..!!besau man!!!hahahaha...Abg promised to bring me ard e Back Nine wen we r on e mrnin shift tgthr agn..hapi2!!

ok la..tml i gt 'C' & Ladies' Medals to attend..haiz..penat man!!ok la..gtg..hehe..byez..*shd i go DnD or nt eh..*

here i am..~

2009-02-15T15:45:00.002+08:00

here i am..at work..aftr 2 days OFF..hehe..gonna b on my own aftr Celeste leave..she's in e mrnin shift..but ok la..ive been left on my own a couple of tymes..so im ok lor..hehe..kinda hapi tt dey gt confidence in me..hehe..ive got sum issue to settle ydae..a guy was "courting" me, but ydae i finali asked my bro Luqman to turn dis guy off..my bro msg-ed dis guy sayin "stop msg-ing Ain from now on. she's getting married soon. so pls stop contacting her." muahahahaha... e hubz wld b so hapi if he knew..haha..*tnx Along*

how was my VDay??it was spent meaningfully wif my lil gal..she threw her tantrum at me for nt allowin her to go into her uncle's rm..wif my patience ran thin for e two whole days wif her..i practically scolded her wif my bitchiest tone..she kept quiet..immediately she cried..but wen everyone wanna comfort her, she crawled to my legs n wan me to comfort her..wen i ignored, e more she wailed..haha..so end up, picked her up n demanded her to stop cryin..n she did..muahahaha..cute ryte??haha..okok..im bein a bad mother..haha..nvm la..den she was ok..less temperamental..hugged me all e tyme..kol out "mama" or "vava"..haha..reali miss her tdae..nvm la..tml anthr off day..haha..cn spend tyme wif her more..tinkin of bringin her swimming..?dunno la..

ok la..im gonna gt bck to work..anitin i'll update agn..gonna check on Hubz tings tnyte..byez...

Nur Farah's 1st Bdae!!

2009-02-13T20:11:00.002+08:00

here are e pple tt r invited to my lil angel's 1st bdae party..8th March 2009 (Sunday)

e party will b held at hm..im makin a color theme..*gegerl, u ingt my plan*

one example of theme: Lizzie (red) + Danny (blue) = Eindra (purple)

those wif (*) means compulsary..

*Lizzie

*Rin

*Rynn

*Gegerl

*Waney

*Erisyah

Lisa - not compulsary cos she's heavily preggie

Silah

Yan (RP)

*Maznah Ferrari

*Razin

*Alia

Fifie VS

Dee (RP)

im sendin out e invitation by tml or Mon..therefore, i nit my lovelies' addresses..so far ive gotten Fifie n Rynn..so to my lovelies who r readin tis..cn sms/email me ur address..

so lovelies, quickly tell me ur address ok?! hope u gals cn make it..miz u gals ALOT..*im doin fine..* updatin e private blog aftr dis..byez..

updatezz..~

2009-02-08T14:35:00.000+08:00

would like to inform my lovelies..

my diary has been updated..e zoo trip..
all pix..
enjoyzz..

gonna go AWOL...~

2009-02-06T09:47:00.002+08:00

hey babes..
i wun b bloggin for e tyme being..both here n my diary..
im currently on depression..
ydae was e worst day of my life!
Baby coughin nonstop n cryin wen in my arms..
my tears flowed wenever i tink of hym..
both of us miz hym alot..
bt ive to stay strong for hym, her n myself..
ok la..
gtg..nk klr wif my cuzzy..
if im ok, i blog k..
bye2..

enjoy my OFF days...

2009-01-31T18:28:00.002+08:00

gonna hav a great TWO day offs!!haha..Sunday & Monday!!woohoo~

both days im gonna spend tyme wif my two love lives..hehe..

tml im goin to bring BabyLove to a special plc..a plc which was planned to go wif e gfs, bt backfired..cos i was financially disabled..hehe..so, tml im fulfillin my promise to my lil one..hubby is tagging along..hehe..suppose to go wif Rynn Kawaii..bt she gt plans tnyte..nvm la...so it'll b juz US TRIO..woohoo..~

on Monday, *sory Gegerl*..im gonna go out wif Hubz..before he goes to Court for hys charge..on 6th Feb, if cnfrm he goes in, im gonna suffer;lyke fuck..gonna b spendin tyme by Esplanade or ECP if he goes in..haiz..*i took AL for tt day*

okok..watever outings i have, i'll update pix & entries on my diary..so do read up eh ladies..~byez..gtg..tyme off!!hehe..

miss my babylove...

2009-01-19T14:57:00.003+08:00

gosh..tdae im super bored!!!e GOLF COURSE is closed e whole day for maintenance..still nit to work cos nit to ans calls for bookings..n attend to sign-ins for Executive Course..so much ive learnt thru my 3wks here..im oredi in my 4th wk..n im lovin it..despite e stress n pressure..well, wat kinda work has no stress n pressure ryte?e nice ting is tt at tymes i nit nt buy lunch for myself..or even breakfast..been 4days straight ive worked mrnin shift..6.30am till 4pm..my meals r bought by members tt come to play at the course..alot tau if dey buy 4 us..generous la dey all..even if dey r at tymes veri cerewet n ngada2 on e phone..hehe..wen mit, dey r extremely nice..

hubby has been great..been fetchin me every nw n den..wkends he cn fetch me anytyme..even come lunch wif me..but wkdaes, depend cos he's workin..if cn fetch, onli wen im in my 2nd shift..he wld fetch wif hys cute smile n manja-ness..dinner on hym, as usual lor..den go hm..hehe..love me so much la he..haha..den at hm, play wif BabyLove den go off..

work has been gettin me super tired n bz tt i dun hav e energy n tyme to wif BabyLove..she misses me veri much..she wld crawl all e way to me wen she sees me comin thru e door..crawl lyke cockroach la sei..haha...cute kn..haha..so end up ive to scoop her up n carry outta e house to make her hapi..haha..okok..enuff la kn..im super missin her la..at work, all i cld tink of is her..tok abt oso abt her..nutin else..hehe..

ok la..gtg oredi..nit to go hm!!haha..bye..tml n wed im OFF!!!whee~hope to c e hubby soon..miz hym dearly..

stress liao..~

2009-01-01T09:29:00.002+08:00

aku stress la sial..keje ok ar..cuma bgn pagi2 ni yg uat berat..haiz..

mom's cn b pain in e ass at tymes..aku fucked gila babi ar dgn dia..
barang2 aku dia nk check..puki ar!mcm sial kn..haiz..stress tau..

keje da la kena layan members..alik jek, dia lak uat hal..aku solo salah, aku attached salah..bingit!!

aku rase2 kn, aku nk mati kn diri mulai skg..biar aku diam,dpd aku citer pape dgn dia..haiz..

aku da bagai org asing kt rmh..yg kuat mintk layanan, obviously, princess aku..tapi parenz aku??aku mcm da tk de mak bapak..gara2 org2 yg pukimak suka report-mengreport..

korang2 ni tk de keje eh??suka sgt rosakkan hidup org..aku de pernah rosakkn hidup korang tk??aku prnh paotoh-kia psl korang nye rshp ke, korang isap rokok or watsoever..aku pagi tadi hilang sabar dgn mak aku..hilang sabar smpi aku klrkn rokok marlboro menthol aku..dia nk mengeluh ke, nangis ke..dia nye puki ar..aku kasi duit, confirm diam..kn?!chibai ar..

ikutkn perangai lama, aku da belah sak dari tu rmh..duk rmh saper2..duit gaji aku bayar duit sewa or wat..aku da give up ar dgn mak aku..bapak aku masih aku blh give n take..mak aku jek, aku da tk blh harapkn lagi..

aku gi keje..da tk bwk bekal..atau allowance..lunch or wat, aku makan ape2 yg kt dlm pantry..atau ape2 yg members kasi kita bdk2 GRO..cakes,sweets,noodles..mcm 2 days ago..one of e members "SWEETHEART" bought us gals MEE GORENG..haha..hapi aku..

tapi korang2 eh, nnti cukup tyme dpt tau, aku da tukar number & address..aku da sot jek, aku klr dari rmh..biar ar..aku klr, aku report hw my parenz treat aku..den bwk hal gi mahkamah tentang Putri; if drg tk nk kasi aku c kecik tu..haiz..stress la hidup aku..

ok la..aku nk sambung keje..lepak dgn bdk2 GA..haha..bye..

dust bunnies..

2008-12-28T13:59:00.002+08:00

gosh..itz been a wk since i laz updated..haha..

bz la wif work..pdhal kt JCC cn use e comps for net..haha..

but duwan la..got alot of bookings to do..n LOADS to learn..different day/nyte, different rates..

ive been neglectin my close gfs/bfs since day 1..*sory gang..*

tdae im spendin my day wif e young one..she misses me alot..i knw..cos she wldnt let go of my sleeve wen i wanna put her down to slip..so for 2 hrs 15mins exactly, she slept on my chest, thigh n in-btwn e legs..she wld put up her hands towards me..to carry her..den she wld snuggle close..gosh~reali miz her..evryday i work fr 9am - 6pm..i wld reach hm ard 6.45pm..den i wld wash up, eat dinner den off to bed wif her..she wldnt fuss..slip soundly wif me..den wld wake up in e mrnin, den cry wen c me go off..haiz..~stress la..~

ok la..i gtg oredi..nit to chng e lil one's diapers..she's bz playin wif e Jumperoo..more pix n vids wen i update more tml..cos itz my OFF DAY..haha..byez..

Day out wif e Family...

2008-12-21T21:24:00.002+08:00

here i am..bloggin for anthr day..hehe..ive been "tortured" by Princess..her demands tdae were overwhelming..mayb cos of ydae's swimming..tdae we brought along her Pram..so she cld slip in..she was well-behaved in e mrt rides..serioulsy..but, she was cranky wen wanna slip n bein sit inside e pram too long..haiz..tirin sei..Mommy bought a pair of shoe for me..~hehe..cute though..cn wear it to work tml!!woohoo..~

e plan was to mit Yanyan..but ended up, it backfired..cos she was comin down late..btw, ive applied for ICA Specialist & Police Officer..well, it was for Daddy..cos he wan either me or my bro get to work for Govt..haiz..it was GREAT!!..*dapat cuci mata!!!*muahahahaha..

had lunch at BK..but e onli person tt ate was me..n i had to feed Princess..den evry1 was hungry xcpt me..went Banquet..all ate, xcpt me..i onli had fruits..fed Putri sum..chngd her den went HOME..i was home b4 4pm..wah~!!dis is e earliest timing for me on a SUNDAY!!!wahahahaha..

once home, i put Princess to slip n oso went for a nap..woke up by 6.30pm..dinner was Nasi Briyani..nw im done!!!tired oredi!!!hahahahaha..

ok la..nit to slip early..tml workin 9am-6pm..byez..nytez..

Day out wif e Families..~

2008-12-20T20:46:00.004+08:00

wah..damn tired la tdae..spent my whole aftrnoon wif e family..guess, Daddy wanna make me spend as much tyme as i can b4 startin work on Monday..Daddy owaz hav tt kinda attitude la..haiz..it doesnt matter much cos he knws tt im gonna b a quite bz wif e work schedule..ok la..im reali gonna miz tt lil one once im workin..1st wk gonna b 9am - 6pm..aftr 1 wk, den normal shifts..haiz..

left hm ard 12.45pm..waited for Cik Rahman n Iman..cabbed down all e way to CDANS..cos we made bookings oredi..Daddy n Cik Rahman took bus..hehe..once there, we hung out..Cik Tipah (Iman's mom) oredi waitin..hehe..so played 3games..nt much improvement cos i wasnt well tdae..n been a LONG time since i laz bowled wkly..haha..

den we went swimmin..i swam wif Putri..she loves it..hehe..splashed abt..hehe..e bro played awhile den gave up..me n Putri swam for abt an hr..den i gave up..too tired..aftr tt, fed Putri wif her fresh, warm bottle of milk..while my parenz went to renew our HomeTeam NS membership card..aftr tt, went bck to Teh Tarik..took 187 bck..Putri kept pesterin Iman..haha..kecoh man..den had our lunch b4 goin hm..

once at hm, i too tired oredi..put Putri to slip..nw, im gonna slip oredi..tml goin ViVoCity wif e family..Daddy's idea..haiyo..pengsan sak aku..!!haha..gtg..byez..*B got a lil worried wen i informed hym abt e outin..but he's fine..*

my lil tribute...Sis Lisa~

2008-12-17T22:08:00.003+08:00

we've known each other since 2004..
where we 1st met?
where else, if not for the CYBERWORLD..
e place n called Anakmelayu.com

we first communicated through e Sticky Notes..den exchanged MSN address..den our hp numbers..*byk kali tukar number..hehe..*u were there 4 me throughout my rshp wif Zulkhaini..our 1st mit, was on my 19th Bdae..u were in ur ITE Bishan sch uniform..while i was havin plans wif Zul..we were sistaz by den..we went thru thick n thin tgthr..pple mistook us as Real Sisters..we reali look alike in pix..first person to tegur was my Mama..hehe..

years had passed..Sis, tnx so much for evrytin..u've been a great sis throughout tis years..u r nw happily preggie wif 2nd one...im prayin hard u get thru smoothly..im owaz here 4 u if u r in need..i try my bez 2 help out..u knw i wld..we'll pull thru tgthr aite?i love ya sis..forever..

sis, it was great doin business wif u..hehe..our meetup mayb a short while juz nw, but i reali love spendin tt mrt moment wif u..hehe..fr Bedok to Commonwealth..so much we did..tok..camwhored *nasib baik i ingt..hehe..*sis..dun weri abt e SHIRT k?we'll mit up on Fri k..?love ya..muackzz..

great news!!

2008-12-17T10:45:00.002+08:00

starting work on Monday (22nd Dec)!!!!

woohoo~finali Jurong Country Club HR Dept., called..!!dey brought great news..whee~
woke up in e mrnin at 8am wif a total cranky bitchy mood..i was a lil reluctant to get up cos had to tolerate wif Baby's constant wakin at nyte..i was oredi down wif my asthma n flu..haiz..tolerate lor..so, wen bein forced to wake up at 8am..i gt reali pissed..den bathed Baby..she was well-behaved, cos she knew i was a lil cranky..no screamin n shoutin, lyke evry mrnin..aftr showerin her, i got her ready..den it was my turn..as i entered my rm to get ready, e hp rang..my fave tone..ttz whr i knew tt it was unsaved number..hehe..i picked it up n it was Ann Lyn..e HR fr JCC..she asked abt e intrvw evrytin..n wen cn i strt work..wen i say by Mon *cos i gt KKH chck up dis Fri*..she say tt dey offerin me $*.* to work for dem..i was super happy!!she confirmed e timing later..cos i asked who shd i report to on Monday once i reached JCC..im super hapi!!!

told e parenz..e ONLI happiest person *aftr myself* was Mama..she reali hapi 4 me..she say tt i shd b thankful..bt Ayah doesnt seem happy..im super upset by hys unsupportive side..he die2 wan me gt Admin job..bt i cnt gt any..hw??!!haiz..

ok la..gonna go out n gt my Bucket Bag at AMK..den off to Tamp for e NTUC Income intrvw *Ayah die2 wans me to go juz cos used hys Agent's name*..ok la..anitin text me aite babes..love ya..muackzz..

simple Saturday..jobless..sell-off..

2008-12-13T19:47:00.003+08:00

surprisingly, on a Saturday today, im stuck at hm..i dun mind actually..hehe..get to spend more tyme wif e lil princess..she's reali clingy..wanna slip on my top..wanna b carried evrywhr..wanna eat wif me..haiz..gonna miz these moments once she's ALL GROWN UP..*b, i wanna hav ur babies..!!muahahahaha...*okok..im juz goin nuts la..stayed at hm wif nutin much to do..except: cook, clean house, Princess pamperin/disciplining, send out resumes, blogging, textin gfs/bfs, kol-in jobs/buddies..plus, fightin wif e dad..haha..kecoh ryte..?

ok la..im prayin so hard to get e job at JCC..walaupun 6mths..or gt call fr Yanyan's workplace..*ryte syg?hehe..*been a damn pissy n emo lady lately..onli a few of e gfs knw y..im juz worried abt my future n Putri's...haiz..super stressed..

talked to Ayah juz nw..it was abt my lappy..i wanna sell it..cos, it has been a total bitch to me nwadaz..*shut-down/restart itself wen gets too heaty..*i said tt i'll use e money fr e sell-off for Putri's expenses..if itz more den enuff, i'll use it for home items..he said ok..but cn i reali survive w/o laptop??for nearly 5yrs ive been usin laptops, EVERYDAY..fr 1st yr in RP (Acer) until nw (Lenovo)..haiz..i'll try lor..if cnt, i get help fr my buddies abt gettin a smaller laptop fr Courts..pay installments..i saw 1 small Acer lappy at Courts..mthly $20+..haiz..tgk la eh..

ok la..gtg..tml mite doin sum makeover in my room..AGAIN..den mayb go out to do financial plannin wif e gang..byezz..

shook up so badly..~

2008-12-11T18:42:00.003+08:00

today, i didnt go to Boon Keng..Rifah laz min kena go work..so much for "Off Day" babe..haha..so, i went bck to slip once she texted me abt e cancellation..since i was still in pain, due laz nyte's fall in e toilet..*hit head on e sink, hit e floor wif ryte elbow 1st..*it was at 3 in e mrnin..but im ok la..juz a lil bruised ttz all..no biggie..by 8.30am, everyone was up..washed Putri n myself up..den went off to Teh Tarik for our usual breakfast..me, Mama, Ayah n Putri..hehe..ive gotten myself Wanton Noodle, Ayah wif hys Mee Soto..Mama had to eat Nasi Lemak cos nit to feed lil princess..hehe..aftr tt, gave her milk..

im e most careless person on Earth man..i was bz wif e hp; doin some calls..didnt realise tt Putri had pull her othr leg out of e seat..e nxt ting i knw, i heard her scream..she was sittin on e floor oredi..i dropped evrytin n picked her up..she cried on my shoulders..my whole body shook..carried her all e way..called my bestie..he was on hys way out to work..i cried on e phone to him..den as soon as i reached e traffic lite, i saw Mr Policeman running towards me..he hugged me, together wif Putri..i cried even more..he carried Putri..he didnt mind bein late for work..sat at my void deck *e parenz went market & Sheng Shiong..*..put slipin Putri in e stroller..i let Ritz hugged me..he hushed me down cos i was shakin all over..i may look strong wen scoldin her for nt stayin still in her seat; but i shattered badly inside..heard him bacaan..i calmed down..went home straight n he went to work..once at work, he called..gd ting fr my plc to hys camp, gt straight bus..haiz..

by 12.45pm i was gettin ready..Putri was bz biting her toys..den exactly 1.20pm, i left hm..she cried cos i was leavin her..but i hushed her sayin im goin for an intrvw..
reached J.E, 1.45pm..den walked to JCC..haiz..15mins walk..*my own pace*..intrvw was 2.30pm..but i started earlier..at 2.15pm..tok-ed wif e Senior GRO & HR Manager..e timin reali gd 4 me..
wkdays (1st shift: 7am-3pm; 2nd shift: 11am-7.30pm)..nice ryte..wkends (1st shift: 6.45am-3pm; 2nd shift: 10am-7.30pm)..but e pay is onli $1.1k...ok la..near hm..cn tapau..itz onli a 6mths contract..cos 2 of e GROs goin Maternity Leave..hmm..pray hard i get lor..at hm, im super stressed..wif e parenz..n i oredi lost track of e days n dates..haiz..

ok la..wanna rez..Ritz wld scream if he check-ed in & tt im on e lappy..haha..byez..

UPDATED

pray hard to get a job soon..

2008-12-10T22:00:00.002+08:00

gosh..~tml im gonna b gone for quite awhile..fr mrnin till ptg2..

mrnin mitin up wif my buddy Rifah at Bt Batok..den goin Boon Keng..goin to gt my mp4..since dey oredi reserved for me, so abit easier..hehe..den goin bck to J.E, to go for my 2.30pm interview at Jurong Country Club..as GRO (Golf Relation Officer)..hehe..hopefuli gonna gt e job..cos i prefer near to my place..so i dun hav to rush fr hm to work..if dun get it, whr else..i hopefuli to get a job so i cn hav money for Putri's expenses..haiz..no money, no luxury..stress la..~

ok la..gtg oredi..nit to tok to my gf abt tml..byez..~

great Saturday..~

2008-12-07T11:21:00.005+08:00

tdae im at hm wif my BabyLove!!woohoo~...

b4 i carry on, i wld like to wish my lovely gfs n silent readers....

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha..

simple ryte?hehe..well, i am simple..wonder why & who say im a HIGH MAINTENANCE BITCH..hmm..

ive heard alot of stories abt me..so, im trackin down e person who did tis crap to me..hmm...

forget abt tt..ydae ive got a great day..wanna knw?go to...here..hehe..if u cnt access it n nt in e list ive mentioned in e previous entry, it means u r nt invited..muahahaha..sory silent readers..onli my gfs cn access it..those yg nk access, email me k?e gfs onli..

laz nyte, i cldnt stop kissin BabyLove..she's super cute wif her hair clip..Putri Inqrasyahni..super cute la kn..hehe..den she cldnt stop sayin "mama" or "mamam"..hehe..for 2days she kept saying "vava", "papa", "baba"...haha..nw wen she looks at me, on e spot she say "mama"..aww...cute kn..hehe..

here's her pix n vids..

itz my private life - bitch

2008-12-05T11:35:00.003+08:00

dearie gfs..ive opened up a private blog tau..so, wenever ive updated it, i'll put up e link in dis blog's entrie..hehe..

Private

only a batch of gfs r allowed to view dis blog..i onli gt a few of dem nye emails..yg i didnt invite, msn me k?if u r part of my list, i'll invite u k..?

.............................

im super pissed off tdae..e faq tt fightin wif e parenz r a basic schedule/routine of my life..haiz..nvm la..dey wun ever undrstnd wat im tryin 2 do..reali hav had it wif dem..thank goodness, im still wif my sweetie pie a.k.a montel..hehe..she's owaz there 2 perk me up wen im reali super down..ok la..gonna update my private blog abt ydae..hehe..

e list of gfs invited to view e private blog..:
Lizzie
Rin
Gegerl
Waney
Lisa
Rynn
Silah
Erisyah
Hannan

im gonna update sum issues on my other blog..i'll inform whichever blog has been updated..hehe..

Stress + Pressure = S.U.I.C.I.D.E

2008-12-03T21:03:00.001+08:00

see e title of dis entry..?ttz wat im feelin nw..ive been blasted by e parenz dis noon..it was aftr a call fr my nenek sedara..it was abt e othr side's bitchin abt me..wat made dem MORE pissy is tt my parenz didnt give Putri up for adoption..lyke fuck ryte?!den, e parenz started blastin at me..abt e plans im havin wif e gfs; dey disapprove..dey tok abt money issue..den say im owaz on my laptop 24/7..dey xpct me to use e laptop for jobhuntin, but for goodness sake', ive got othr tings to do oso..help my fren wif her blogshop, checkin my email response..plus, whrelse cn i let out my inner emotions..??my diaries; my mom reads dem..*sigh*

i cried, argued wif e parenz..itz so shitty..alot of exchange of words..i was super upset..my dad was sayin y nt put full guardianship of Putri under dem..let her panggil him n Mama "Ayah/Mama"..wtf?!i was super boiling hot..den i broke down upon lookin at Putri's face..i cnt bare anymre shits fr dem..i wanna bring her outta e house..bt whr to??i nit gt a job..a.s.a.p..den rent a house..whr i cn stay independently wif Putri..den mit up wif HYM anytyme i wan..damn fuck!!im so pissed wif dem..

if i cn gt a job, im gonna rent a place..e plc i wan is BEDOK/HOUGANG..away fr dem..i wanna b wif e ones i love..nutin makes me hapi; othr den my gfs, her n HIM..my parenz kept pressurin me..

aku kawin lari aru tau!!

i tok to Rin abt my prob..i gt no1 else to turn to..i wanna runaway wif her..bt i duwan HIM to do anitin stupid to take care of us..haiz..im super torn up..wat m i to do?!..

wan me to work; at the same time wan me to take full responsibility..wen i take care of her fully, sum1's havin e damn RED eye..itz lyke hw m i to b e mother wen e grandmother gets in e way all e tyme..??haiz..im super stressed..i wanna swallow e bottle of pesticide n watch my life slithers away..or grab e damn knife n stab myself..shit la..~super upset!!

creepy; tiring..

2008-12-02T12:37:00.004+08:00

ydae, we had a hectic day..brought Putri to KKH..cos she was havin fever n wateva she eats/drinks, she'll vomit it out..nt alot ar..bt it freaked me out ALOT..i didnt inform HIM cos duwan HIM to worry..plus, he didnt contact me..so, no prob la..didnt went to get my Mp4..or mit up wif Sis Lisa..nvm la..tdae suppose to mit her..but laz nyte, sumtin creepy happened..

at 11.15pm exactly, Putri woke up n i was bz wif readin my book..she cried alot..so had to calm her down..den put her in my parenz rm..aircon mah..den i was in my rm..readin n listenin 2 mp3..but, e weird ting is tt, mama (in her rm) heard Putri's rattle being played..so did i..but we nvr tegur2 la..until mrnin den we ask..was any1 sittin outside at e living rm aftr 12am..no one..den Putri wldnt slip..1+am, Mommy brought her to my rm..she was still awake..eyes mcm burung hantu..ya allah..den she ajak main2..gurau2 wif me..end up, Mommy had to bacaan Yassin; repeatedly..i had to entertain Putri..haiz..den in e end, i was super tired out..dunno wat tyme oredi..den Mommy brought Putri outta e rm..den i rested in my rm..i heard a kid giggling..but it was Putri..cos she was juz lentok2 on Mommy's shoulder..so i took my wuduk n read Quran all e way..Putri was juz kipin quiet..no sound fr her..haiz..tirin sei..

mrnin came..Mommy asked abt e rattle ting..it crept evry1 out..i wasnt cos im used to it..cos it hppns 1x awhile, onli tt e family doesnt knw..ive had my experience wif "disturbance" fr pple..but weneva i kena, i had to take surah Yassin n read..or juz istighfar over n over agn..until i fall aslip..Putri seems ok dis mrnin..played in e Jumperoo, tt her Mama loaned to us..she cldnt stop jumpin, gigglin..hehe..ok la..nit 2 rez up..veri e tired..if HE is on a nytes off tnyte, mayb HE cntct me..haiz..if HE does, cnfrm i go out wif HYM..spend a few hrs..nvm la..okok..tyme 2 rez..Putri's aslip..aftr her lunch..hehe..bye..

F.I.D.G.E.T.S Outing~

2008-11-30T22:02:00.001+08:00

Princess @ Lizzie's..

A Day Out on 29th Nov'08

Naughty Cheeky Princess

Manja Loves Playing @ Fidgets!!

My Loved Ones @ Fidgets

okays..enuff of e collages of e pix..hehe..here's e entry for today..hehe..im gonna rant it out abt e outing..

29th Nov is a veri special day for me n Putri..so, Lizzie n I made plans to go FIDGETS..supposed to hav Rynn Kawaii along..bt, she laz min gt other plans..Family comes 1st..i undrstood..itz ok..hehe..Daddy was ok wif me bringin Putri out..so he n Mommy cld rez more..cos wif Putri at hm, itz total chaos at home..hehe..at 2.30pm, me n Putri left home..took cab down to Bt Panjang..Putri was abt to bz bein distracted wif sum1..HE was pouty all e way cos i wldnt let hym carry Putri..haha..den wen at Lizzie's void deck, we sat at e seats..tok abit..gave Putri her milk..she was fallin aslip..bt as soon as we were in e lift *Lizzie called to go up..hehe..*, Putri woke up..haiyo..den we lepak at her crib..took pix..den we left ard 4pm..took cab down to TURF CITY..hehe..in e cab, it was great tok btwn me n Lizzie..abt e kids, e guys n sum othr matters..den HE was super distracted..HE played wif Putri..love dem to bits la..
den, once reached TURF CITY, me n Lizzie went to look for socks..den gt slightly lost to get to FIDGETS..hahahahahaha..we went in..Lizzie paid for e entrance..she paid for EVERYTHING..i felt sooooo bad..so was HE..we made a lil plan to repay Lizzie's kindness..*babe..ily k..so, my treat soon k???*
unfortunately, aftr an hr of playing, Putri gt SUPER CRANKY..*juz lyke at GGBB..bt nt tt bad*..chngd her diapers, prepared her milk..i didnt panic badly, lyke at GGBB..so, aftr coaxin her wif HIS help, finally put her to slip..selawat near her ear den peeped over, she was aslip..HE was surpirsed..bt i told HIM tt it was normal 4 her..haha..sat on e chair, she slept..den gt a lil tired, put her on Eindra's pram..*tnx Lizzie* den HE n Lizzie had a hard tok..HE was easily distracted, bt had to kick HIS leg den tk distracted..kena warning rabak man by my babe..haha..

ard 6pm, we left FIDGETS..closin tyme oredi..hehe..waited 4 e rez..n me n HIM took lift down..HE pushed e pram..she was slept soundly..den at GIANT, she woke up..bt wasnt cranky..Lizzie cldnt carry her more den 10mins..haha..den had to pass to me..HE begged me to pass over to HIM..so i did..let dem gt used to each other..

went back to Lizzie's plc..showered Putri..cos she gettin cranky..nt enuff slip la..den fed her..but still cranky..tried to put her to slip, per normal, no use..end up Lizzie's mom asked to put Putri in e buai..so i did..tk smpi 5min, Putri in dreamland..haiyo..haha..me n HIM cld eat wif no disturbance..haha..Danny came hm n brought Lizzie n Eindra out to buy e dinner..ttz y Putri cld slip in e buai..hehe..ard 9+pm, we went off..Putri oredi woke up..in e cab, me n HIM tok abt future plans..dropped HIM off at Clementi, ttz whr HE "lives"..went hm wif Putri..haha..gonna let Putri play wif e Jumperoo soon k Lizzie..

tdae had a loooong nap wif Putri...fr 11am till 2pm..haha..at abt 4+pm, went to cut my hair..HE accompanied..missed me la..muahahahaha..den went to buy dinner for e family..ttz wen dey call to say Putri fell off e bed AGAIN..haiyo..nt so bad la..HE gt super worried..wen reached Clementi, called me to chck up on me n Putri..syg mah..haha..

ok la...hope u all had a great weekend..i did..i mean, WE did..tnx Lizzie..my other babes!!wen to go out tgthr???plan2..ZOO??Picnic??cpt2..hehe..wanna bring Putri out agn!!!hehe..nytez..slipin tyme..tml mitin Rizal to get my Mp4..den go intrvw wif Sis Lisa...byezz!!

he's finally back~

2008-11-28T19:02:00.003+08:00

gosh...tt pix was taken e day b4 Putri was born..ttz hw he look lyke laz..haiz..tdae, 28th Nov 08, is e date tt he's been released..gosh~finali e wait is over..
but im unlikely to be lyke b4..im still gonna stay strong..im nt e Ain tt he left..im a diff person nw..stronger *as said by Lizzie*..i do hav my problems tt constantly bringin me down..no worries la..im gonna b juz fine..

e convo tt lasted for ard 22mins..was abt hw much he miss e food, Putri..den informed wat tyme he released fr DB n went to Maju Camp..wat e camp mates said wen saw Putri's pix..hw much dey say she looks lyke hym..haiz..den he asked abt mitin up wif me n Putri..cos he misses us both..i told hym, he shd put Putri 1st..nt me..he say tt wateva he do nwadaz, wld b 4 Putri n me..but he knws he nit 2 regain my trust n respect..he oso has to respect me..aftr tt, he sae he wanna go eat..wen he say he wana go vivocity, i yelled..*normal instincts* he end up say he wun go..cos he duwan me gt upset..

den i texted e beloved Hunny..she deserves 2 knw..
Putri got veri excited wen i ended e kol..she wan me 2 carry her..kiss her..hug her..haiyo..clingy princess la..
ok la..tyme 2 go shop n buy my top-up card..den mayb gt a haircut..i hate my long hair..byez..

p.s: love my new layout..

wat a drag..~

2008-11-27T22:25:00.005+08:00

gosh..~

i had dreadful nyte..e nytemares..e "disturbance"..Putri oso kena..gosh..it was super torture for me..i had images of HIM takin Putri away fr me..kidnapping, hurting..i woke up in sweats..Putri slept in my arms e whole nyte..she wldnt let go..haiz..

exactly at 3am..i woke up n put Putri at e side..i cldnt breathe properly..i cldnt even mengucap..Putri woke up n laid on her tummy..lookin at me, den wailed..e parenz woke up n helped me..gosh..i felt my life was gonna end..but aftr Ayah azan me n Mama helped me wif my ventolin, i felt better..Putri slept agn in my arms..

in e mrnin, i woke up at abt 9+am..was havin a high fever..Putri was wif e parenz oredi..i lay in bed till abt 11am..showered..den relax..helped ard wif e house chores..den by noon, i felt better..wanna mit up wif Lizzie bt too late oredi..so, slack ard..den Ibu called..she asked if wanna tag along to J.E Swimming Complex..so i did..went wif Mama n Putri..had a great tyme there..pestered Abg *onli Lisa & Lizzie knw*..he was workin noon shift..so had to give hym wake up call at 2.15pm..hehe..he was cranky..muahahaha..bt hapi tt i called..wen he found out tt i was outside, he went naggy..worried abt my safety n baby's..goin swimmin durin rainy season..he say i musnt do dis agn..called me ard 8+pm..dinner tyme..

well, tml's e day..e day tt FUCKER b out..dammitt..~still pissed off la..bt nvm..i b fine..tml goin SENTOSA wif my darling babygal, ALIA..~!!hehe..gonna hav a blast..itz juz us gals..she wana tok abt Raz, my cuzz..den abt her new guy..incld. mine..haha..ok la..here's e tdae's pix of Putri n me..

My Two Lil Angel *Devils @ Times*

My Sleeping Princess

*Dah puas mandi, makan*

Mami Tired & Sweaty..

New Hoodie *myvintagesin.bs.com*

Necklace *Ayie*

well, ttz abt it..enjoy ur tyme gals..muaxx..wateva hppn tml, i'll update soon..

Lizzie!!Sat jadi tak??FIDGETS!!!!

confessions...

2008-11-26T18:03:00.003+08:00

im super fucked up ryte nw..
so much regrets..

so much hurt..

wanna knw sumtin??
i regretted waitin 4 hym 4 e past 8mths..dh nk release, masih nk perangai sial dgn aku?!tipu aku rbk2 psl tu surat..pukimak dia ar..dia ingt aku tk de back-up to get hys damn story straight..p mampos ar, aku pmpn kau ke, bapak pd anak aku ke..kau nk tanggung anak aku??diri kau tertanggung ke tak??masih nk isap benda2 haram??plan blh plan, tapi blh tk uat jadi reality..tellin u abt wat ive went thru still doesnt get inside ur damn head isit??yalah..isap gum byk sgt!!buto!!

there..i finali let it out!hmm...wat shd i do nw??..

Lizzie!!!dun 4gt our lunch date!!!love ya..

k la..nk rez..bye..

depression strikes..

2008-11-24T08:59:00.002+08:00

my weekends sux!!

on sat, went over to help a buddy wif hys stuff..he wanna apply line..but he's damn picky wen cums 2 e hp part..i was super bitchy twds hym..but wen he nit 2 go off 2 work, he told me 2 kip lookin 4 e phone he wans..so i went over to Bedok, fr Tamp..thnk God Lisa was ard..aftr much search & e brkdwn, went over 2 her crib..lepak there..plus,my damn jeans were stained..haiz..had to wash e stain off..sat at her crib..ate wif her..my lunch+dinner..she knew wat hppnd..she was there 4 me..*tnx Sis*...aftr tt, he called nearly 7pm..asked my whrabts..den asked abt e damn hp..i was super pissed..den went hm..gt hm, e war started btwn me n Mama..*nt go into details*..msn-in wif Sis Lisa..den went out wif e gals..i cldnt take e stress at hm..

spent my wee hrs in e mrnin (fr 1am - 4am) wif e gals..n e guys came to accompany their gfs..haiz..saw e smooching..f**k la..smoked e nyte away..bt at 2.30am exactly, i broke down..i cried so much tt i became "blind"..e gals comforted me..but to no avail..all e memories flowed back..e tymes HE cheated on me..HE used me..HE hurt me..y muz dis hppn to me wen i was damn faithful to hym..i cried so much..e guys came..comforted me..ended up, i went over to e playground, n sat at e small hut..singin my fave song "Take a Bow"..played it on my hp..i was left alone for abt 30mins..den dey came over n hang out wif me..went hm,Putri was in my parenz rmh..i cldnt care..i was too depress..her words still ringing in my ear & inside my head..it juz sux..

my sunday was spent wif Putri..she made so much noise..makin me laugh..doin silly tings 2 make me laugh nonstop..but wen e evening came, evrytin slowed down, e tense heated up..e buddy left me alone..damn shit~!!..thnk goodness my new fren, Rizal, was nice enuff to "layan" my kerenah..Putri was taken away agn..dis tyme, i cldnt care..i felt as if im meant to lose her..haiz..

at 11+pm, Nora called;she was at AMK..Faz hit her agn..so i had to rush down to my aunt's side..waited for dem to come..as soon as Nora stepped into e house, i was blown e top..her face was bruised..her lips were bleedin..damn..~i told her to go inside n wash up..as soon as Faz entered, i threw a hard punch at hys damn nose..hah!e war began..exchng of heated words..angry words..curses..he slapped me, i punched hym agn..he hit me, i hit hym wif e piece of wood i prepared at e side..as soon as Nora saw my arms were bruised, she screamed at us to stop..she shouted at Faz tt itz over n she's taken their daughter..he wanted to hit her, but i stopped hym..damn..~i was super upset wif e parenz..add on wif dis..i was super angry..my ol' self emerged agn..n i hate it..i wash up n slept..nxt 2 Nora n her daughter, Alysiah..took off at 6am *evry was still aslip*..came hm, n rested..nw, im at e comp..bloggin..body super weak..but, nvm la..my tears were gone..my heart was torn apart..my life is black..im done wif HYM n MY PARENZ..no more waitin 4 e one tt didnt chng hymself..no more hearing wat e parenz wan bez 4 me..no more punchin e lites outta e ones tt dun deserve it..

ok la..e parenz r up..Putri's up..tyme to go MARKET..byez..

hope u guys had a better wkend den me..

praying hard..to get to work at eBay...

2008-11-17T22:53:00.004+08:00

gosh..~e interview juz nw went super smoothly..i arrived Tg Pagar ard 10.40am..cos fear tt i wld gt lost..n i was..haha..plus, it was raining..so i took a cab over to Neil Rd..costs me $3.80..haha..den went for e intrvw..it felt comfortable..im in love wif e ambience..i talked alot abt my experience wif NTUAC n Rotary..e gd ones la..haha..it was a great intrvw..

cont' on 19th Nov..
den Akhbar(a fren fr Tagged) fetched me..hys fren was drivin e Pestman van..so i sat at e back..since dey wanna go lunch..so i tagged along..my nxt intrvw at Bt Batok Crescent was at 3pm..hehe..had lunch..den lepak2 inside e van..i took a short nap while e guys were doin sum pest control work..haha..den dey sent me off..e 2nd intrvw was a drag..i didnt tink i cld ace it..dey kept askin if i cld communicate in Chinese..haiz..dh la..forget it lor..went hm via bus..den had Apul fetched via Lorry..haha..since he was nearby..den went hm..told Mama tt i didnt spend much on EzLink..haha..she say tt it was my luck..haha..

Akhbar has becomin more possessive den ever..damn la..we've met up juz a few tymes cos of me goin Jobhuntin or i was nearby Bedok..since ydae, he's been veri possessive..he wasnt happy tt hys fren tok alot wif me..bt hys fren was super kecoh wif me..haha..as for Apul, he's oryte..kinda a big bro to me..owaz patting my head..kept remindin me to take gd care of myself n Putri..he doesnt wan me 2 gt hurt by any1..nt even fr e Hubz..

ok la..gtg..tyme 2 rez..update more soon..

B-I-T-C-H

2008-11-13T14:04:00.002+08:00

itz gonna b less den 2wks b4 he's been released..im confused wif my feelings nw..either im dreadin for hys release or m lookin fwd 4 it..haiz..Lizzie & sum of e close gfs knw abt e matter im goin thru nw..

*babes, if tt Baby Shiqa does exist, im gonna tear her into pieces..*

feelin super sick for e past few days..super BITCHY to b exact..ive been pissy twds e cuzzy n hys ex gf..im so pissed off wif dem since Sunday..die2 wana mit me n Putri..but begged me to bring Putri to TOWN area cos if ex gf were to come Jurong, itz a torture..wtf?!if i go TOWN wif Putri, tk torture ar??!!lagi2 tgh hujan lebat tt day..damn shit la she..~n made me missed out goin Jobhuntin wif Gegerl..she wldnt beg personally, u knw..she made my cuzzy begged cos she thght wif my cuzzy, i sure melt..bt she was damn wrng..i gt BITCHY to hym..n it dragged till tdae..cos both still dun undrstnd my situation..expect me to bring Putri out to THEIR side..damn la..if Putri tk tkt org, ok ar..bt she fears of strangers la..haiz..

finali let it out!!okokokok..nit to rez..e nose is killing me..hehe..bye..

meaningful weekends..~

2008-11-10T14:00:00.002+08:00

for e past two days, ive spent it well wif e family..esp. wif Putri..on Saturday, ive spent e mrnin wif e family..we went to hav our brkfaz at Teh Tarik..Putri was super happy to c evry1 out tgthr..haha..she was super hyper la sei..hehe..den went 2 e market wif Mama..bought CRABS!!!hahaha..stupendous..~haha..e whole day was juz plain fun-playin..Putri wldnt let me outta her sight..if im away fr her for more den 5secs, she'll wail damn loudly!!haha..den it was a short trip to BP..Az wanna mit up..cos he wanna tok abt sum matter..aftr spendin abt 2hrs wif hym, i went bck hm..spent more tyme wif Putri..hehe..

on Sunday(ydae)..woke up a bit late..hehe..e bro went Madrasah..parenz went out..me n Putri slept in..cos we slept kinda late, due to her crankiness..den at ard noon, Ayah say he wanna go Wak's house..i was lyke "Yippee!!"..haha..sms my kakak..den she sae she's oredi there..so evry1 gotten ready..we left hm ard 2+pm..walked all e way to Wak's house..*nearby onli*..hehe..den evry1 squealed upon seeing Putri..haha..so she was passed ard..Abg Nasir was bz buildin e shelter at e back of Wak's house..evry1 slack ard..hehe..den by 4pm fed Putri her milk, n she fell aslip..she slept on my lap; so did i..haha..aftr she woke up ard 30mins later, she played wif evry1 else..i cabot into e house 2 relax..texted wif e guys..askin whr dey r..haha..*my social life..* den checked my "Tagged" on Kak Nana's comp..whee~aftr done so, attended to Putri agn..hehe..went hm ard 6+pm..
once hm, i wana wash her up..bt as soon as i carried her outta e pram, she slept on my shoulder..*aww..* i cldnt bare to wake her up to bathe her..so let her slip awhile..nearly 1hr, she slept..since she slept on my top, i fell aslip on e sofa..haha..dinner was KFC!!fed Putri wif Whipped Potato (Small)..she ate half of it, den strt shakin her head..hehe..

well, ttz abt it for my wkend..i reali had a gd tyme..been a long tyme since i had it..hehe..ok la..nit 2 rez up wif Putri..bye..

gfs made me smile..

2008-11-07T20:46:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Cotton Candy Love

currently makin full use of my "free-tyme" to blog..Putri's aslip la..hehe..okok..ive done sum decoratin of sum pix..so ive decided to put dem up..

here's e pix of me n my bestie, Nana..we went to Tempek's wedding @ BP..Jalan Teck Whye..gosh..it was a reali grand event..bt it strtd to rain ard 3+pm..hehe..so we kinda stuck..bt me n cuzzy, Raz, went off by 4.30pm..headed bck to my crib to chill..he was reali hapi to c Putri..hehe..

had a gr8 tyme mitin up wif Rynn Kawaii..she's a veri chatty person..cn click rabak wif her..love her 2 bits lor..she was quite "impressed" tt i cld go anywhr ALONE..but it was nutin la i told her..im used to it..cos ive been goin evrywhr alone since i was 17..hehe..used to it ok, darlz..

tdae ive went to do sum jobhuntin wif Gegerl..itz been a long tyme since we reali tok n hang out..waited 4 her at CT Hall..den went Changi Airport..den had lunch at BK..den went Tanjong Pagar..den went separate ways..hehe..nw we r planning to go jobhuntin agn on Tues..hehe..if we dun gt e job at Hotel81, den we mit on Tues..hehe..ok la..gtg..nk rez..Putri's up..bye..

putri's my evrytin

2008-11-04T21:43:00.003+08:00

makin way to bloggin, Putri pun bgn la..so, kinda doin 2 tings at once..actuali 3..haha..*chatting wif my bloggin gf, Rynn* so let's tok abt my life lately..

work sucks BIG time!!e bitches r backstabbin each other oredi..n im e one to b put on blame..cos of dem, im owaz been called 2 e office 2 c e damn boss..shitty ryte??dh la kt rmh e parenz uat hal wif me..haiz..

ryte nw, im a lil down cos of e parenz..dey kinda made my life miserable daily by askin abt my future partner..wen bloody hell itz e HUBZ..haiz..nvm la..jodoh di tangan TUHAN, nt dem..*ryte Lizzie?* Lizzie knws abt dis..

aniwaes, ive found out one of my silent readers is my ex bf..Azlan..haha..he 'fessed up wen met up at BPP..spent a gd tyme wif hym..tok-ed abt wat to do wif Hubz..haha..ok la..*az, i go wif ur flow k..*

me n e cuzz, Raz, r gettin much closer nwdaz..cos he owaz made tyme 2 mit me up durin hys off days..since hys brk-up, im hys new "GF"..haha..so we kinda bonded even more..he became extremely close wif Putri..haha..he wans her to kol hym "Ajin-Ojichan"..haha..cute kn..

tml im goin for a job interview..e current one, ive given up la..till nw i haven gotten my pay..lyke shit la..so stressed up la..gd ting still gt savings to cover for e mth's supply for Putri..ok ok..

gt a call fr Dino..damn..~he asked for hys mone..ive totali forgotten abt e incident in 2006..shitty..told hym i gt e cash a.s.a.p..den he gave me up till nxt wk..haiz..whr to get e amt??argh~!!okok..relax ein..

tml aftr e intrvw, goin to mit up Alia wif e cuzz..cos he's accompanyin me 2 e intrvw..hehe..aftr all e mit-ups, goin to DB..itz tyme 2 visit e Hubz..hehe..

ok la..gtg..tyme 2 slip..!!nytezz..~

itz been a long while..~

2008-10-25T23:10:00.002+08:00

gosh..itz been long time since i laz updated..haha..been bz n dun tink i wanna update too much..

but recently, Putri been super clingy to me..she wldnt let me go out w/o her..she wld wail or show a sad face if i say "Bye"..gosh..~tt brks my heart..but wat brks e most my parenz..hw much dey pressure me..work oredi stressed me up..nw dem..ive been kicked outta e house recently..but i still came hm in e end cos Putri was searchin 4 me n e parenz dunno wat 2 do..dey pujuk me hm..so i did..haiz..

on e 17th, i had a gr8 tyme wif Putri & hym..it was a memorable day 4 us..itz been too long..*more details, ask me personally..hehe..* cnt wait 4 hys return 2 share "US TRIO" tyme!!

my hari raya has been ok..visited e ones closest 2 me..ive yet 2 visit LIZZIE!!!damn..~wen sei..Raya cumin 2 an end..hmm..~aniways, ive been distant fr sum of my gfs,due 2 bz-ness..*sory Rynn dear* but dis comin wkend im gonna make it up 2 sum of dem..

on 2nd Nov, got weddin 2 go wif Nana Ferrari..bringin Putri & Raz along..mayb Jai nk ikut tk eh?hmm..prolly mitin up wif Rynn on 1st..bring Putri along..aftr Ida's engagement..hehe..

aniways, ive been bz wif work n doin sum "work"..here's e ting..e cuzz, Raz, had a bad brk-up wif hys gal, Alia..2yrs+ went down e drain..i knw wat hppnd..n my cuzz blamed hymself..which he's at fault la, truly..he had no1 2 turn 2 excpt me..so been there 4 hym since day 1 of their brk-up..alia has been goin thru ups n downs oso..been turnin 2 me 4 comfort oso..other den dem, ive been helpin out a gd gf of mine, Aida..she's been abused by her boo for e past 5mths+..so rcntly den dey brk up..ive been there 4 her..comfort her thru kols, sms, mit-ups..fetched her fr hys plc or othr plcs..but ydae, she reali kena by her parenz..den she begged me 2 come over her plc 2 gt her outta e houz..so i did..since i was on MC..packed up Putri's tings n brought her over 2 Aida's plc..Putri slept moz of e tyme..super manja wif Aida's parenz n siblings..hehe..reached abt 12..den went off by 7pm..Aida was cryin moz of e tyme..e day was lecturin her, "mandi" kn her..den her parenz wanna gt 2 knw me well, n asked me 2 help guide Aida 2 e ryte path..i sae i cld try cos i myself nt tt of a gd person..so took cab hm..Putri was super well-behaved..slept well at nyte..

so nw ive to handle alot of pple; other den myself..haiz..left 33days till hys return!!haha..cnt wait..~!

ok la..nit 2 eat my BONE STEAK den chat wif Jai abt tml's plans..den slip!!Putri's sound aslip oredi..hehe..bye..

simple raya-outing..

2008-10-11T22:31:00.002+08:00

wah..on e 11th day of Syawal, finali me n e family went out..but we left abt 2+pm..cos Abg Man (Kak Wati's ex hubby) came wif his two kids..he calls hymself Daddy wen he held Putri..sweet kn..hehe..1st house was Kak Wati's house..cos she was missin Putri veri much n she wanna tok 2 me abt e issue..so spent abt 2hrs at her place..Putri was super happy!!she enjoyed her tyme..veri close wif evry1 there..she didnt cry wen dey carried her..

den we head over to Kak Yam's house..we didnt stay long cos we r nt tt close wif dem..Putri was aslip in my arms..but as soon as i passed her over to Ayah, she wakes up..haiyo...den in e cab, she cldnt sit still..den we head over to KKH to visit my auntie..she's sick la..kena cancer..haiz..no comments..onli certain pple knws abt tis..Putri was abit hapi yet uncomfortable there..den she cry for her milk..so i prepared e milk n fed her..once she finished, she wanna slip..haiz..put her to slip while e parenz tok..she slept on my top while i sat on e seats..

we went off by 8pm..den took cab to hav dinner at Teh Tarik..once done, went hm la eh..but i was super worried abt Aida..she had an accident recently la..den sum1 was msg-in me 'u kt ne..dh alik ke blm..' haiz..ok la..nk slip..mayb OT-ing tml if no plans 4 outin..nyte..

my loves...~

2008-10-03T22:32:00.003+08:00

months had passed by so fast & ive seen my lil angel grew..where does she get her smarts, cheekiness & manje-ness..?i can know e answer well enough..

smarts from her Pa'Man Hanif..
cheekiness from Mami & Uncle Iman..
manje-ness from Dadi Edin..

she's e joy of my life..she brightens up my mood weneva im bck fr work..she'll wake up instantly *even juz fell aslip* to greet me wif her smile n laughter..she automatically makes me forget e problem im facing daily, both at home & at work..

she's nvr a prob 2 me..she does stress me out..pressure me wif e whole motherly ting..but i get worried wen at work..kept tinkin of her..den i wld cry lyke hell if i realised tt she's nt nxt 2 me..b4 goin 2 work, i wld spend 5mins lying nxt to her as she slips..if she's awake, i wld carry her outta e house for 5mins..den pass her bck 2 Mama..e saddest ting wld b her stare..n her frowns..followed by her whimpering wantin 2 follow me..

ok la..ttz all i wanna share abt my lil angel..Nur Farah Nadirah..byezz..

Selamat Hari Raya......

2008-10-01T12:37:00.002+08:00

to all my gfs..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!! MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!!

pay's in!!!woohoo~gave Mama her money & Ayah oso gt..nt 4gttin e lil bro..Princess gt her duit raya dis mrnin fr both her grandad & Mami..hehe..she looks super cute in her dress!!haha..*pix up soon*

as planned, our raya will b home-based..nt goin out..Ayah dun mind if i wanna go out wif any1 n bring Princess out..he juz gt no heart 2 visit e hypocrites..i undrstnd Ayah..we had a gd long tok aftr e salam2..kehadiran Putri reali pulled us all tgthr..*where were u all wen my family was falling apart..both financially & health..idiotic relatives!!*

my pay dis mth is reali satisfyin..im able to pay Mama more den b4..she deserves dis amt cos of takin gd care of my lil princess..she may b a pain at tymes 2 me, but she's still there 2 pick me up wen im down..ttz my Mama..e bez mom a gal cld eva ask 4..

aftr takin out abt $400 ydae, in e bank left $1.2+k...hmm...tyme 2 shop 4 Putri's lil anklet..hehe..nxt mth's pay Mami gonna bring hm much more cos im gonna OT daily..cos of 2 specialist i nit 2 c soon..for my ryte ear & throat..damn..~

ok la..nk watch TV..byez..~

stress + work = health hazard

2008-09-29T22:25:00.003+08:00

wow..itz been awhile since i laz updated..
kinda on a down-side..both me n Putri are unwell..

down wif high fever, flu & cough..

i had an asthma attack on Fri mrnin..exactly at Subuh..i wasnt able to fast cos of e RED light..ive oredi calculated tt im gonna miss e laz few days of fast cos ive missed e 1st wk of fast..

anihoos, received e letters fr my hunny Lizzie..1 was a simple paper card Hari Raya fr hym & e other was a letter..e letter tt shred my heart into pieces..

on Fri i was on MC..den on Mon i took half-day..but went back 2 e doc n gt 2days of MC..wah..~ive gotten it agn!! tonsilities.. sad ryte..hehe..but ive been havin it quite frequently..since a yr ago..Hubz been buggin me 2 do OP..remove my tonsils..but im stubborn..cos itz quite costly doin surgical removal of tonsils..anihoos, im savin up lil by lil thru my CPF & Medisave..nvm la..ckt2, lama2 jadi bukit..

dis yr raya im makin it simple..i mean, my family..we r onli lettin pple tt accpts Putri 2 come by our place..dose tt cnt accpt, mite as well, go to hell~..true wat..aku yg uat dosa, nape anak aku jadi mangsa penghinaan org2 yg WARAK2 mcm ATUK NENEK aku..bingit sei..drg hypocrite ar..dgn my mom, say nicely n ckp cn accpt..but end up behind our backs, drg kutuk2 n say cnt accpt..WAT E FUCK!!!??!!!
so dis yr, im juz gonna visit e gfs..n those tt accpts my lil princess..

ok la..gtg..tyme to rez wif e lil princess..

p.s: tnx hunny for e lil advice n ur constant care n concern..i cnt wait for Oct 4th..ttz e date im gettin my Viewty!! den insyllh Oct 10th im visitin hym wif her..whee~

all over again...

2008-09-23T21:50:00.002+08:00

gosh..~

i miss him veri e much..

seein him on ydae..reali brought back memories..my love for him returns..haiz..

spent e tyme wif him onli a mere 30mins, was all worth it..more den enuff..

i reali love him nw..more den ever..

he means e world to me..he loves me n Putri more den anitin..he's doin evrytin he cld to make us work out..he oredi planned, in 2 yrs' anthr one will be comin ard..!!hahaha..gosh..it means once Putri turns 3/4 yrs old, we'll be havin a 2nd one!!hehe..he loves me too much la..kwang3..

ok la..gtg..nit 2 rez..tml workin liao..cnt wait for 5th Oct...!!woohoo~LG Viewty here i come!!!

seeing love again...

2008-09-21T23:49:00.002+08:00

im counting down to e very moment tt i gt to see his cute face..even if itz for half an hr onli..but it wld make me hapi for e tyme being..it'll b anthr 67 days b4 im his arms agn..gosh~i miss him soooo badly..i cld onli tink of him..itz nt cos of Putri..itz cos of my love..my heart..i still love him dearly..i wanna b wif him..haiz..

Hubz been writtin in to me..he misses me n his lil one veri dearly..evry tyme i hear e song "Rela Setia", i wld brk down..i kept tinkin of e promises he gave..he makes me feel complete..makes me feel beautiful..makes me feel tt nutin is gonna go wrong as long as im confident in livin my life wif greatness..okok..nw e memories r returnin..im missin him even more..ok la..gtg..nytez..

happier times

2008-09-19T22:48:00.005+08:00

*apologies for e dirty mirror..itz filthy tnx 2 e itchy hands of my lil bro..*

itz been weeks since ive last saw Abg..really miss hym belly muchie..miss hys golden monkey hair..hys smile..hys kisses..hys pout..hys hugs..n also hys manje-ness..gosh~itz hard la to forget e tings he did 2 me..e cheats, e lies..*Lizzie knws..*ive went thru sooo much wif hym..yet i stood by hym..nt leavin hym..despite e temptation to..cos e hurt brews deep inside..

but Lizzie kept remindin me 2 tink of e gd n hapi tymes i had wif me..remove e hurt..e anger..e pain..

anihoos..~im tankin Singtel for givin me a loyalty voucher of $100..i cn buy any hp n pay wateva e amt, aftr deduct fr e voucher..BUT i nit 2 wait till Oct 4th to do so..ttz e date my upgrade is eligible..so, ive planned to get e upgrade on e Oct 5th (16mths anniversary)..plus...itz on a SUNDAY!!hehe..Mama's holdin on to my ATM to prevent me fr overspendin lyke laz mth..*4/5 of e pay bought Putri's toys, clothes, milk, food & pampers..* so she say i cld take onli $300 for MYSELF to spend..e rez of e money goes to Putri's expenses, household expenses..i still nit to give at lease $250 to Mama for taking of Putri..hehe..dis mth, ive OT-ed over 24hrs..bsk im OT-ing agn..cos nit to cover my Unpaid Leave on Monday..*seeing Hubz..so nit to prepare myself..* if take half-day, i nit to take cab over..broke sei!!JI to JP jek dh $12..aper lagik Yew Tee????hahaha..tk per ar..pun nit a short brk..

work's been tough..but ive got great seniors 2 guide me n help out if im in doubt..i love my colleagues..i love my job..i love gettin paid heavenly for OT-ing..haha..Hubz hapi tt i gt a stable job..me too..hehe..so, ttz y for my 1st pay..im spendin on e family for their support..quite a big dinner..*invitation open to sum gfs..Lizzie!!!u compulsary eh Syg!!*
aniwaes, im cravin for tis hp nw..LG KU990R Viewty!! i cnt get e iPhone..y nt try Viewty 1st..hehe..pun ttz e hp i wan wen i was preggie laz yr..kwang3..hw?

open new book~

2008-09-14T11:37:00.002+08:00

hey..tis is my new blog..e current one ive decided to go on HIATUS..cos pple nvr stop judgin me there..nvm la..

tdae's my update is on my work..
dis wk ive OT-ed for 11hrs..seriously..laz wk, ive OT-ed 5.5 hrs..i reali love OT-ing..because it helps to lessen a lil of my workload..wen i OT, it means more pay..den goin OT wif e gals fr RLPL (Rotary Logistics) r fun..we wld email each other, hang out during lunch hr @ Meeting Rm to SLEEP..haha..
whenever i come hm, Putri's my main priority..i'll feed her, play wif her..den slip wif her..hehe..fun ryte??i do miss my besties *Lizzie & Nana*...but e 3 of us r too bz..undrstandable..hehe..

ive informed Lizzie abt e QC guy tt been "close" wif me lately..she's soooo mean n say tt i deserved it..cos of wat i wear to work..hahaha..love her la..goin to n back fr work reali scary..cos he's owaz there..hehe..but ok la..Kak Liza kept sayin tt ive got a lil scandal in e makin..haha..cute la she..im reali close to her..cos of who she is, n she's alwaz there 2 help me out in my work..hehe..

im waitin 4 Din's letters fr Lizzie..but dunno wen cn i gt to see her..cos im too bz wif work n Putri..wkends r spent wif her..nxt wk im goin to her Lil Mafia's bdae celebration..den on Sunday mayb im workin lor..hehe..im becomin a WORKAHOLIC!!!haha..but itz 4 my benefit n Putri's..plus itz to help me kip bz while waitin 4 his return ryte??hehe..

ok la..gtg oredi..nit 2 pamper e princess..
byez..

Alwaz Be My Baby

move or not to move...?

sweetness.of.love.

imperfect hari raya....

After Long Silence

Tiring Week....

great weekends to everyone..!!

Damn Busy Life

blogged...~

Zoo Outing On 3rd June 2009 - Rina Baby, Khai Bro

sweep off e cobwebs..

long silence..

Hectic Week

back from AWOL-ing on Blogging..

make it clear: It's Over...

My Saturday Date wif Mama Lizzie

lil update..

Birthday Celebration..

great weekend!

updates..depression..

regrets...

Sweet Sabo Saturday...~

super bitchy + tiring FRIDAY!!

bloody pissed..*oops..she did it agn..*

My Sweetest Angel

100 Random Facts...

Weekends For Mami & Baby

Back To What You Know

honestly...im dying..

my unperfect, yet lovely, relationship...

busy life..busy week..

16th March 2009...

Happy 1st Birthday To My Dearest BabyLove...

stood up much..

The "Requested" WishList & My Bitchy Rants

stress @ work

BabyLove 1st Birthday Preparation...~

couple outfits...~HAWAII DnD

boredom due to SUSPENSION

ALOHA! Staff DnD..

here i am..~

Nur Farah's 1st Bdae!!

updatezz..~

gonna go AWOL...~

enjoy my OFF days...

miss my babylove...

stress liao..~

dust bunnies..

Day out wif e Family...

Day out wif e Families..~

my lil tribute...Sis Lisa~

great news!!

simple Saturday..jobless..sell-off..

shook up so badly..~

pray hard to get a job soon..

great Saturday..~

itz my private life - bitch

Stress + Pressure = S.U.I.C.I.D.E

creepy; tiring..

F.I.D.G.E.T.S Outing~

he's finally back~

wat a drag..~

confessions...

depression strikes..

praying hard..to get to work at eBay...

B-I-T-C-H

meaningful weekends..~

gfs made me smile..

putri's my evrytin

itz been a long while..~

simple raya-outing..

my loves...~

Selamat Hari Raya......

stress + work = health hazard

all over again...

seeing love again...

happier times

open new book~

bloody pissed..oops..she did it agn..